Praying on the Prairie

Lets Go to a Movie Friday Five

2012-01-20T13:26:00.000-07:00

Thinking of movie-watching, what do you prefer?

1. At home or at a theater? The theater

2. With whom? Good friends and family

3. Movie you look forward to seeing? Joyful Noise, The Hunger Games movie

4. Movie you like to see repeatedly? There are so many! Rent, Because of Winn Dixie, Once, etc!

5. Food with a movie? Totally 100% popcorn!!!!!!

Taking Hold of Fear

2012-01-18T21:51:00.000-07:00

"Be strong and bold; have no fear or dread of them, because it is the Lord your God who goes with you; he will not fail you or forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6)." Or from the Message translation---"Be strong. Take courage. Don't be intimidated. Don't give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He's right there with you. He won't let you down; he won't leave you."

Fear is a crazy thing, isn't it? It can be very debilitating to anyone of us. I think fear often gets in the way of trying new things or even living our lives. Because we don't know what the outcome will be, we let fear take over but the truth is that God is with us in the midst of those fears. But even in the midst of God's promise to walk with us, fear still sometimes takes over. A friend recently mentioned the possibility of a change for their family and this friend also mentioned that fear was taking hold. If they take this change on wonderful things could happen, but yet fear takes such a deep hold that we are afraid to go for it! Several other friends are battling cancer and in the midst of that struggle, they are being prayed for and held up by so many yet I know that all of them have had to face their own fears head on.

We need to learn to let that fear go which I realize is is so much easier said than done! But children can be such great examples of this. I think of parents who tell of their children who arent afraid to try anything! Hmmm....maybe we could learn something from them. This got me thinking about my own life. When I have let fear go, amazing things have happened. If I hadnt interviewed at SuperAwesomeBibleCamp, I wouldn't have worked there for seven summers and never would have ended up at seminary. If I hadn't gone to tour Wartburg Seminary, I never would have ended up there and made one of the most blessed decisions of my life. If I... If I...If I......

Fear likes to take a hold of all of us but I believe, we must take these words from the Old Testament to heart! God promises that he will never leave us or forsake us. Do not be afraid he says! So perhaps we need to let fear know whose boss and trust in our a God; a God who loves us more than we ever could imagine!

Pinterest, Glee, and Other Meanderings

2012-01-17T21:37:00.000-07:00

Pinterest!!!!
Sarah Thomson, I blame you!
It is so addicting!
But I love it!

I love using my crockpot to make meals. And Ive been trying to be better about cooking more and not eating out so much. This site has given me some great ideas and I hope I can try at least some of them. There are way too many ideas to try them all! Living in apartment has its downfalls. In my bathroom there is no shelving or drawers just a cabinet so it was fun to look on Pinterest for new ideas/ solutions. Maybe I can make my apartment look a little more homey etc. Im excited to explore Pinterest some more!

In other news, I am such a cryer! Anyone who knows me knows that about me! Tonight I found myself crying at "Glee!" I kept thinking, geez girl, get your act together but that has always been me. I am such a romantic and love happy endings. But sometimes I also think the tears are because of unfulfilled hopes etc. I so am waiting for my Mr. Right and a family. But enough about that, life is so good. I just find myself yearning for those things.

The other day a friend texted because at her church there had been a meeting about foster care and how they really need foster parents at the moment. She said it made her think of me. If you've read some of my earlier posts, you know how deeply I yearn to be a mom etc so when she brought this up, it seriously made me think about the idea. Im going to have to pray about it and see where God leads me!

Recommendations Friday Five

2012-01-13T11:02:00.000-07:00

1. Recommend a favorite worship resource or devotional book. I would recommend anything by Henri Nouwen!

2. Recommend a blog that you like to read that you think others might find enjoyable. Boy there are so many of my friends who love to blog so I think you should read any of my friends blogs! Some blog more than others but they are all worth the read!
http://lindy-whoami.blogspot.com/
http://everydayholy.blogspot.com/
http://www.girlwithblog.com/
http://unholypastormommy.blogspot.com/
http://marklepper.blogspot.com/
http://www.ontherideofmylife.blogspot.com/
3. Recommend a fiction book that you think people might like. Im reading the Hunger Games series....and am loving it!!

4. Recommend a favorite recipe website. O.k., if you aren't into cooking or food, then just recommend a random website that you find useful, hilarious, mind numbing or thought provoking. Ive really been digging the Pillsbury website. I love this recipe. I made it earlier this week!

http://www.pillsbury.com/recipes/slow-cooker-mexican-chicken-chili/4d696811-d49d-4e8e-ba4d-447fb083a869/?WT.dcsvidw=NTkzNDEzMDk0NAS2&rvrin=B7A6E81E-06AC-4A14-B2C8-B1B75816DB02&WT.mc_id=Newsletter_PB_PB_2012_01_04&nicreatID2=Newsletter_PB_PB_2012_01_04

5. And for the last recommendation--it's bloggers' choice! Make a recommendation for anything! Hmmm....this one is hard! The Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother....etc! Matthew West...Chris Tomlin....Jars of Clay...so many of my fave Christian artists!

Remembering Two Years Later....

2012-01-12T15:16:00.000-07:00

It seems hard to believe that it's only been two years since the Haiti earthquake happened. I remember exactly where I was and who I was with when the events of that day and week unfolded. I was a small group leader at the Diaconal Ministry Formation Event in Gettysburg PA. We began that morning talking about prayer (if I'm remembering correctly) and one of the girls in my small group shared one of Ben and Jon Larson's songs. Little did we know that hours later the earthquake would hit in Haiti. And then only two days later would we learn that Ben was gone! And as I think back to that week, I am fully aware of the Holy Spirit's presence in the midst of this tragedy.

Today Ben's wife/my friend Renee and Ben's cousin Jon are in Haiti; walking with the people of Haiti, that still two years later is trying to rebuild. I began my morning this morning listening to Ben's version of Psalm 30. Even after his death, Ben still sings! Ben's words are still heard! Today has been a busy day; conference meeting, conference call, etc, I find myself FINALLY just taking a moment to reflect and remember Ben and the other 300,000 people that lost their lives that day. I cant help but think of Ben's words, "God's peace to us we pray."

May God's peace be granted to all of us! May God's light shine during this season of Epiphany!

Unspeakable Joy Revisited!

2012-01-08T14:25:00.000-07:00

Awhile back I posted about a Chris Tomlin Christmas cd where he does the song, "Joy to the World" but interlays it with a chorus he wrote. Two words from the chorus really hit me when I heard the song for the first time. Those two words were "Unspeakable joy." As we enter into the Ephiphany season, may we always remember the unspeakable joy we find in Christ who tells us who and whose we are. The words from the chorus go as follows: "Joy, Unspeakable Joy, An Overflowing Well, No Tongue Can Tell, Joy, Unspeakable Joy, Rises In My Soul, Never Let Me Go (Copyright Matthew West)" So as I put away my Christmas decorations, I cant help but cling to those words. God never lets us go! God tells us always who and whose we are! May we never forget that!

And since it is so easy for us to forget that I ask you to check out Matthew West's song on his Christmas cd titled the "Day after Christmas." It is a reminder that the light of Christ is with us throughout the year!

A-Ha Moments Friday Five

2012-01-06T08:57:00.000-07:00

Please tell us - what are five (more or less) of your 'A-ha' moments. Where have you had a moment of clarity?

1. Deciding to go to Wartburg Theological Seminary. I went with a friend to tour campus. The moment I walked onto campus, I knew that God wanted me there. Totally an A-ha moment!

2. Going to work at Camp of the Cross. I didnt think they would hire me but they did. And then they couldnt get rid of me!

3. Starting this blog and continuing my passion of writing. As well as finding a local writing group at the local library.

4. That sometimes you just have to be spontaneous and try new things.

5. Hearing my call to Diaconal Ministry. Im totally not called to "Word and Sacrament" ministry but rather "Word and Service" Ministry!

5.

New Year's Eve 2011

2011-12-31T21:13:00.000-07:00

It's New Year's Eve 2011! Once again I find myself just chillin' at home....and somehow Im ok with that! :) My Dad and I had a nice NYE dinner tonight. C was working so I was Dad's date for the night! LOL! We had shrimp, prime rib, potatoes, and green beans! It was yummy! Then C came home and we watched Dick Clark's New Year's Rockin Eve on tv! So super exciting....LOL!

What word would you use to describe 2011? For me, it's blessed! Blessed to meet new friends, blessed to spend time with family and friends, Blessed to serve a congregation I love, Blessed to have such great colleagues in ministry, blessed, blessed, blessed!

And as I look towards 2012, I find myself thinking about what my hopes are. I continue to hope to find my Mr. Right and start a family. Im so ready and I know it will happen when I least expect it but it's so much easier said than done. I hope to save more money. I hope to spend more time with my family and friends. I hope that they find a cure for cancer. I hope that those that are battling cancer are able to beat it. What are your hopes for 2012?

Happy New Year my dear friends and readers!
May your 2012 be filled with many blessings!

2011 Blessings and 2012 Hopes Friday Five

2011-12-30T12:45:00.000-07:00

As you look back over 2011 share 5 blessings, they can be as grand or as simple as you like,if you year has been like mine they are probably a mixture!

1. Continuing to be blessed by the people and congregation I serve.
2. Attending and meeting some amazing new people/friends at the Lutheran Academy of the Rockies
3. Being able to spend time with my beloved family and friends
4. Finding a writing group at the local library that has helped me with my passion of writing
5. Simply just being blessed beyond my imagination throughout the year

As you look towards 2012 share 5 hopes- again, anything goes!

1. That I will finally meet my Mr. Right and be able to start a family
2. That the 7 youth going to the ELCA National Youth Gathering will be blessed by their experience.
3. That I might get to reconnect and visit with some WTS friends
4. That my life will simply continue to be blessed and enriched by wonderful friends and family
5. That I might win a poetry/writing contest

Happy New Year dear readers and friends!

Christmas "To Do:" List Friday Five

2011-12-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

Today's Friday Five---Five things on your Christmas "To Do" List.

1. I still need to finish Christmas shopping. Im mostly done but I still have two people left. Hoping to get that done this weekend!

2. Wrapping those presents! :)

3. Finish addressing my Christmas cards, get them stamped and sent off in the mail!

4. Sunday School Christmas Program practice tomorrow and program on Sunday. So thankful for our music directors for taking on the Christmas program. They will do an amazing job and it takes some stress off of me which is so cool.

5. A Christmas Day sermon to write! I started it yesterday but still have a ways to go!

As a bonus, give us something that helps you remember why this season even exists.
Advent! Advent really helps me focus on whats truly important. Its about the birth of the Christ child; the Word made flesh.

Outrageous Grace! Unspeakable Joy!

2011-12-14T10:05:00.000-07:00

Outrageous Grace! Unspeakable Joy! Last night I was at a church meeting and one of the ladies shared a poem that talked about the crazy "jingle jangle" of the holidays and how there is no mention of taking time to pray etc. As I closed my eyes and sat and listened to her read the poem, the one phrase that really jumped out at me was the phrase, "outrageous grace." (Now leave it to me and all the rest of us good Lutherans to really find ourselves resonating with that phrase) But what is outrageous grace? What does outrageous grace look like? I think outrageous grace comes in so many and various ways. Outrageous grace is when someone stops to help you when you are having car troubles. Outrageous grace is holding an infant in your arms and knowing that nothing but nothing can seperate us from the love of God. Outrageous grace, I believe, is watching parents interact with their children. I am reminded of my friend L and her son. She really doesnt like making sugar cookies but she did it because her son wanted to. And in the end, the mess and the smile on his face was totally worth it...that is outrageous grace!! :) Outrageous grace is taking time this holiday season to stand in the cold and ring the bell for the Salvation Army. Outrageous grace is patiently waiting for your first child to be born! (GirlwithBlog and J, I'm thinking of you today) Outrageous grace is realizing that Im not always right! What does outrageous grace look like to you?

In addition, I happened to be listening to one of my favorite Christian radio stations yesterday when another phrase jumped out at me. Im not one hundred percent sure on the artist but I think it was Chris Tomlin. The song is his rendition of "Joy to the World" (I think thats the song) and in the middle he keeps repeating the phrase "unspeakable joy". So what is unspeakable joy? In many ways I think outrageous grace and unspeakable joy can look a lot a like. Unspeakable joy is hearing a friend tell about the benefit that was held for her and being overwhelmed by the many people and the money that was raised. Unspeakable joy is reading about a college friend and her family's adoption journey. Unspeakable joy is watching a seminary friends family grow especially after their long awaited journey of getting that child about 3-4 years ago!

Unspeakable Joy....
Outrageous Grace....
Unspeakable Joy...
Outrageous Grace

Random Friday Five

2011-12-09T12:17:00.000-07:00

So, for our Friday Five, I invite you share five random things about you, or five random thoughts, or five random surprises in your life.

1. All of my cousins and I were all born on the third of a month. We are all girls. I also only have two first cousins.

2. I'm wearing my brown with pink Special Olympics ND hoodie!

3. I love nativities/manger scenes and collect them. I currently have about 30 different ones!

4. I love the Biggest Loser....and have a huge crush on Bob Harper!!

5. I am still very single....but someday hope to find my Mr. Right...sooner rather than later hopefully!

Breaking Down the Walls of Fear

2011-12-07T15:57:00.000-07:00

Fear is a crazy feeling, isnt it? The Advent One texts reminded us of how often fear can get in the way of our lives. This past year has been no exception. Harold Camping predicted that the world would end and then when it didnt, he gave us a new date, and when that day came and went, we were all still here. "For we do not know the day nor the hour." Yet so many people found themselves wondering, what if he's right. I remember a story a colleague told about a woman who is living in fear because of what is predicted in 2012. The colleague asked what she would do differently with her life if they are right. Martin Luther always said, "He would simply plant a tree" meaning he would just go on with his life! Yet how many of us are guilty of letting fear get in the way of living our lives etc! A dear seminary friend has been battling cancer. The operation was successful but then they found that that nasty "c" word had spread to her lungs. :( Ive been simply amazed at her words as she has posted on her carepages site. Yes, she has found herself struggling and wondering why but one thing Ive noticed is she is NOT letting fear get the best of her....she is clinging to the promises of God. What a great example she is! I think too often we let fear get the best of us. I am just as guilty as the next person. What if I never find my Mr. Right? What if I never get the opportunity to be a mother and have a family? What if...What if...What if....and because of those what ifs, I let fear play in and am afraid to try new things. I am reminded of one of my friend Ben's alltime favorite movies, "The Wizard of Oz." Dorothy, the lion, the scarecrow, and the tin man all had their own fears/obstacles to overcome. During this season of Advent, I find myself clinging to the promise of this precious one who is born in a stable in Bethlehem and later dies on a cross in Jerusalem for our sins. This precious one comes to show us that fear will not have the last word but rather that God will!

Trusting in God

2011-11-28T22:57:00.000-07:00

So I just have to laugh. Recently a colleague and I were having a conversation about my future and starting a family etc. I hadnt thought much about it but had to laugh at the things that occurred after that conversation. First, a dear friend tells me about two single friends who are pursuing their calls to motherhood....one through IVF and one through the adoption process. Then Im watching one of my favorite shows, "How I Met Your Mother," and the whole episode is about Barney and Ted adopting together...being "bro" dads. Too funny...just made me laugh and shake my head as I thought about the conversation I had just recently had. Then another friend refreshes her blog as her, her husband, and their two boys begin their journey of adoption. On this friend's blog, she posted the following quote about adoption. "Adoption is not for the faint of heart. It takes courage, determination, and complete dependence on a God who called you by name and sent you on a mission." These words have been on my heart as I discern what the future may hold for me! God works in mysterious ways and I sometimes wonder if these events are God trying to tell me something. I dont know what that answer is but I am simply....Trusting in God....

ABCs of Thankfulness

2011-11-26T15:16:00.000-07:00

My friend Lindy posted her ABCs of thankfulness. I love the list she came up with and thought I would post my ABCs of thankfulness as well. Enjoy!

A-Andrea; My sister! I dont know what I would do without her. Love her to pieces!

B-Babies! I am such a baby lover and hope to have a family someday myself. I am so thankful when I get to have some baby time and cuddle with a little baby!

C-Camp of the Cross Ministries!!!

D-Dilworth Lutheran Church! I am so blessed to serve the homes of DLC! And of course, the Diaconal Ministry Community of the ELCA!

E-ELCA; I am proud to be a Diaconal Minister in the ELCA!

F-Family and Friends! You all have blessed my life in more ways than I could ever imagine!

G-GLEE! I know, I know, but I just cant get enough of this show!

H-HGTV! Sometimes it is just so good to sit and chill out! I am so addicted to watching HGTV! :)
(and watching my Huskers)

I-Insurance; So thankful to have good and reliable health insurance!

J-Jelly especially Grandma's homemade chokecherry jelly.

K-Kindle! I love my Kindle and have read more books in the last year than in the last two years combined!

L-Laughter! Laughter is such good medicine!

M-Moorhead; the place I call home!

N-NWMN Synod of the ELCA! Thanks for all you do for us rostered leaders! Such a blessing!

O-Oldsmobile Alero! My car! Glad that it is reliable and gets me where I need too!

P-Polly; Uncle T's friend. It honestly feels like she has been part of our family forever!

Q-Quilts; especially homemade quilts by my Grandma!

R-Road trips...especially road trips with good friends!

S-Sketcher tennis shoes. So comfortable...love them!

T-Time; time with family, time with friend, etc!

U-University of Mary...so thankful for my education there!

V-Vibrant Faith Ministries

W-Wartburg Theological Seminary! (And my writing group at the local library)

X-Xtra fun...sorry I couldnt think of anything for X!

Y-Young and the Restless; one of my guilty pleasures

Z-Zumba fitness...love it and I never thought that I would!

What are your ABCs of thankfulness?

Be Still....

2011-11-20T16:32:00.000-07:00

Be Still........and know that I am God!

Be Still.......and know that I am God!

Be Still.....and know that I am God!

I just returned from our NWMN Jr. High Youth Gathering. It was phenomenal. The speakers Trey Everett and Dan Wolpert from Micah (MN Institute of Contemplation and Healing) were the keynote speakers. The theme for this year was "Be" and our theme verse was from Romans 12 "Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your minds." It was so great. They talked about how we are so busy...busy going to sports practice or music or whatever and we dont take the time to just "be"; be who God created us to be! They taught us prayer practices. It was pretty unbelievable to see 350 Jr. High kids sitting quietly, not a movement in site. We need to be more like that and to become more aware of God in our lives. What I realized is that the adult leaders needed this as much as the kids! We are connected all the time...whether it be by cell phone, or tv, or Facebook or whatever. I find myself repeating these words "Be Still and know that I am God!" Dan and Trey taught us to "Be Present" and to "Be Aware" of God! So cool! Hopefully we all learned from this experience and will continue to listen for God's voice!

Be Still.....and Know that I am God!

Thanksgiving Friday Five

2011-11-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

1. Where will you be on Thanksgiving Day? With whom? Im not sure where Ill be yet for Thanksgiving. The last several years I have been invited to a friend's house for Thanksgiving dinner which has been so fun. She invited me again this year. But I might go home and spend it with my Dad, sister, grandparents, aunt, uncle etc but I have to come home Saturday because I preach Sunday morning the 27th. No matter where I am, I will be spending it with people I love!

2. Are there any family traditions or memories associated with Thanksgiving? In our family, we always play the card game "Rook" after our holiday meals. Also candied sweet potatoes is something that we always have at our dinner.

3. What will be on your Thanksgiving menu? Lets see.....if Im at Grandmas...the menu will include turkey, potatoes, sweet potatoes, rolls, a relish tray featuring some of her canned pickles, olives, etc, probably a green bean casserole, some salads, and about three-four different desserts; Pumpkin Pie, some chocolate dessert, an apple pie!
4. Are you trying anything new this Thanksgiving? Nope cant say that I am

5. What is the weather forecast for this day (next Thursday)? The weather channel website says that it is suppose to have a high of 41 and a low of 18.

Bonus: Prayer, poem, song, or whatever you choose to exemplify your image of Thanksgiving (giving thanks). For me, I always thank of the Holiday specials like the Macy's Thanksgiving day parade.

Motherly Love

2011-11-17T20:27:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wanted something so badly? I know we all yearn and want things that we can't have, but then there are things that I think we all yearn for that I wonder if we are meant to have. Tonight as I am typing this, I am watching the show "Private Practice." On the show, Dr. Montgomery is trying everything she can to have a child of her own. And to be honest, I find myself in her shoes....in my own ways I am Dr. Addison Forbes Montgomery. I yearn so much to be a mother and feel totally called to motherhood. And I wonder if that is what is meant for my life. Last week as I watched "Grey's Anatomy," I also found myself also feeling like Dr. Meredith Grey. The one thing all these characters have in common is that they are trying to be mothers and that is something I yearn so deeply for. Im not sure why...perhaps its because I have an amazing mother who is the most amazing women despite living with a mental illness all her life. Perhaps its because I love babies so much or because I seem to have that motherly touch. Just a few days ago I was talking to a colleague and her grandkids and they were telling me how the baby doesnt like strangers but instead of crying the baby smiled at me!

A couple of weeks ago my colleague and I had this conversation about if I ever think about being a mom and the possibilities of that happening in today's society even if I dont find my Mr. Right. Since that day, I have found myself really reflecting on that. And then a friend told me about two single friends who have ventured into motherhood through IVF or through adoption. And then another friend who is married and has two children already told their families news that they are planning to adopt from Bulgaria. Two of my dearest friends from seminary also have adopted. And I find myself asking, Why are people telling me these stories now? Is God trying to tell me something? Is the Holy Spirit working in my life to show me that I can be a mom someday if that is what I so desire? All I know is that whatever God is calling me too....God will walk with me on that journey!

11/11/11 Friday Five

2011-11-11T19:12:00.000-07:00

Songbird at RevGalBlogPals writes, "It's 11/11/11, a date you can read forwards and backwards, American-style and European-style. It's Veteran's Day/Armistice Day, which seems to be celebrated more someplace than others. The kids here are out of school and some communities have ceremonies of remembrance scheduled. My denomination (UCC) is finishing up a drive called Mission 1, which ran from 11.1.11 to 11.11.11. It's a popular date for getting married, or so I'm told, just like other memorable dates (for instance 09/08/07). But mostly, it's a big day for Nigel Tufnel, in celebration of "maximum elevenness. For today's Friday Five, share five ways you or someone you know likes to turn it up to 11. How have you gone beyond the usual expected limits? Feel free to interpret this as eccentrically as possible."

1. Books!!! I love to read and really had a hard time trying to find time to read. Then last Christmas I got a Kindle and I love it. I have read more books in the last year than I have in the last two-three years combined!

2. Babies! Now I dont mean this in a bad day. I just love babies and love when I get my baby fix. The more babies I get to hold----the better---I would say most of this is due to my dream of being a mom someday!

3. Reality Tv! Ok I know that it is ridiculous but for some reason I love watching Reality TV---The Amazing Race, Big Brother, American Idol, the Sing-off, etc!

4. Nativity Scenes! I started a nativity scene collection several years ago and my family and friends have helped add to that collection. I love each of them for their uniqueness and beauty and the stories behind them but Im starting to think that it might be getting a little out of hand! Nope that could never happen!

5. Music/concerts- I dont go that often but when my fave musicians come to town, I love going to see them live. I love all sorts of music and love finding new music too!

Seriously?

2011-11-08T22:53:00.000-07:00

Something has really been on my mind since earlier today. I think part of the reason it's on my mind is because it truly fits in with my last post and the conversation my colleague and I had. I also think it has been on my mind because of some fb posts I saw this evening. As many of you have probably heard or seen on their show, "19 and Counting," the Duggars are expecting child #20. Now I am the first to acknowledge and thank God for God's blessings, but I wonder about their actions. I understand that they feel like they will birth as many children as God will bless them with. But this is where my mind goes balastic and starts asking some pretty serious questions. I know many friends who have struggled to have children. I also have many friends who have struggled but finally had children. And then as a single woman, I still feel called to "motherhood." In each of these cases, I wonder if God would put these dreams so deeply on our hearts if they weren't meant to be. Don't we deserve these blessings as much as the next person? As a single woman, dont I have a right to be blessed with a child if that is what I am feeling called too? (I truly do feel called to "motherhood" and so how do I wait, do I take action, or what?---Im not planning on making any moves NOW but just thinking about what it might mean for my life later on). The last pregnancy the Duggars had resulted in some health issues for the mother Michelle. And their daughter was born premature. So I find myself asking, "Is it safe for her to give birth?" Or is it best to count their blessings and just live their life; why chance it?

Just my thoughts tonight. I hope they arent too disjointed..It's late and late night blogging and a busy day dont always make a lot of sense! :) Goodnight my friends!

November Tidbits

2011-11-06T14:13:00.001-07:00

Listening to the wind howl outside my window. Wondering if winter is truly on its way and is on its way to stay! Hard to believe that Halloween is over and that Thanksgiving and Christmas will be here before we know it! I love this time of year. Advent and Christmas are my favorite times of the year. There is just something so cool about waiting for the birth of the Christ child. What a gift the Christ child is!

Friends Friday Five

2011-11-04T09:20:00.000-07:00

For today's Friday Five please tell us 5 things you like to do with friends. Are they local - do you hit a favorite coffee shop or nail salon? What about the friends who come in from out of town? Do you have a restaurant or museum you like to show off?

1. I love just spending time with my friends. Often times we might go out to the mall and look around or go to a movie.

2. When friends come from out of town, we might go to a movie, to our fave Christian bookstore, or for a bike ride. I especially love showing them the area around the Red River...so pretty!

3. I love that once a month a group of friends from seminary get together at a local restaurant and just talk, catch up on each others lives, etc. We always pick kid-friendly places so they can bring their children along! :) We usually go a local restaurant that I normally wouldnt pick so I love that.

4. I love going to a craft or art show with my friends too!

5. Really it doesnt matter what we are doing as long as we just spend time together!

Weighing the Pros and Cons

2011-11-02T20:27:00.000-07:00

Being a 33 year old single woman is no easy feat! I find myself constantly asking myself, and most importantly, God when it will happen for me! I wonder if I will ever get that opportunity. I understand that it may never happen and that is hard to accept and understand. I find myself asking, "Would God put this so deeply on my heart if it wasnt meant to be?" I also find myself evaluating my singleness at my job. Sometimes (not at all the time but it does happen) wonder if parents have a hard time seeing me as an authority because I havent been in their shoes before etc! And that can be frustrating! In addition, I find myself reflecting on what I can do to make it happen FASTER! I know this isnt realistic but I do sometimes catch myself thinking along those lines. I love being around babies. I truly am happy for my friends when they get engaged and start their own families. But honestly, there is a part of me who is sad too! Which leads me to a conversation I had the other day with a colleague. Now the conversation we had was about adoption. This person asked me, "If I have ever thought about adopting and being a single mom?" They proceeded to say they didnt suggest it but they also said that it is not out of the realm of possibilities. It lead to a great conversation. And to be honest, I have vaguely thought about this topic but I have thought about it. I have listed some of the pros and some of the cons! It would be no easy thing but it is something that I have been thinking more about since that conversation. It is not something I will act on in the near future.........but it is something to continue to pray about etc! And after all these thoughts, I find myself simply trying to continue to cling to God's grace and know that God is in control!

Reformation

2011-10-31T12:06:00.000-07:00

Happy Reformation Day and Happy Halloween dear readers and friends! Yesterday I preached for our Reformation service. I don't normally post my sermons at this blog anymore because I started a new blog just for that but since people seemed to enjoy it. I thought I would post it here as well. Enjoy your day dear friends!

It's All About Grace! (A Reformation Sermon)
I don’t know about you but I love being Lutheran!// Now I realize not everyone here today was born and raised in the Lutheran faith. Some of you married into it. Others of you have found yourself here because perhaps a friend or a neighbor invited you here.// However the truth is that as Lutheran Christians, we don’t spend a lot of time focusing on our Lutheranism.// Although on a day like today; Reformation Sunday, it is very difficult for us not to talk about what it means to be a Lutheran Christian.// Did you know that Martin Luther is named as one of the most influential people of the last one thousand years?//

16th century Reformer Martin Luther opened the door to renewal and reformation for the church when he posted his 95 theses on the castle doors at Wittenberg calling for debate. This renewal and reformation was founded on being “saved by grace through faith”; faith in the one who calls and claims us as God’s children.// Through the precious holy waters of Baptism, God calls and claims us as God’s children despite our own failures and shortcomings.// It is all about God’s immeasurable grace!!!!//

In the meaning of the Third Article of the Apostles Creed in Luther’s Small Catechism, Luther reminds us of the power and gift of this grace when he writes, “I believe that by my own understanding or strength I cannot believe in Jesus Christ my Lord or come to him,// but instead the Holy Spirit has called me through the gospel, enlightened me with his gifts, made me holy and kept me in the true faith,// just as he calls, gathers, enlightens, and makes holy the whole Christian church on earth and keeps it with Jesus Christ in the one common, true faith.// Daily in this Christian church, the Holy Spirit abundantly forgives all sins---mine and those of all believers. On the last day the Holy Spirit will raise me and all the dead and will give to me and all believers in Christ eternal life.// This is most certainly true!//

Martin Luther wrote these words after he came to understand God’s Word more fully.// As a young man, Luther questioned if he was even lovable. He questioned if he was living up to God’s expectations of him.// But as he began to study God’s word, he began to discover a God who infinitely would love him despite his own failures and shortcomings. He began to see God’s grace pouring through God’s Word.//

Luther Seminary Assistant Professor of Old Testament Kathryn Schifferdecker captures this well when she writes, “Luther knew that God’s nature does not change.// God was, is, and will continue to be a God of great mercy, forgiveness, and love for a wayward people.// It is that people’s (the church’s) understanding of God’s nature that had become clouded in Luther’s day. Like Jeremiah, then, Luther called the people of his day to a new understanding of God and a renewed emphasis on God’s grace and God’s abiding love even for a sinful people.”//

As Lutheran Christians, we are people who are simultaneously “saint” and “sinner.”// The truth is that we consistently fail.// We fail at loving each other.// We fail at being who God has called us to be.// For in the words of Romans, “All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” Yet despite these failures and shortcomings, God still shows us God’s immeasurable grace by sending God’s Son to die on the cross of everyone of us.//

And because of that grace, Martin Luther’s renewal and reformation of the church continues to challenge us daily.// The Lutheran church is a church that is constantly evolving; trusting in God’s grace, clinging to the promises of that grace, and knowing that God and God’s grace is the truth that will set us free.// So what does it mean for us; Dilworth Lutheran church, to be a “renewing” and “reforming” church?//

Dilworth Lutheran church is a “renewing” and “reforming” church by reclaiming what it means for the home to be actively involved in the faith nurture of our children, grandchildren, and all those we love.// Dilworth Lutheran is a “renewing” and “reforming” church by equipping families to take faith home through our Milestone Ministries and Confirmation programs.// Dilworth Lutheran is a “renewing” and “reforming” church by helping our neighbors beyond these walls; whether it be by building a home in Haiti, starting a community garden, or collecting canned goods for our local food shelters.// However the truth is that we are never done “renewing” and “reforming,” we are constantly in need of renewal and reformation. We are constantly evolving and changing just like Luther saw his church as constantly evolving and changing.//

But the beauty is that as Lutheran Christians, even in the midst of continual renewal and reformation, God promises that God will never leave us or forsake us.// God continually shows God’s love for God’s children despite our own failures and shortcomings.// In all actuality, it comes to down to God’s immeasurable grace for all God’s children! Or in the words of my friend Lynn, “Being Lutheran is about grace, liturgy, Scripture, grace, coffee, and one more helping of grace.”//

That immeasurable grace, my dear brothers and sisters in Christ is why on a day like today; Reformation Sunday, I am proud to proclaim myself a Lutheran Christian who fully believes in and clings to that grace not just on this day but every day.// So as a fellow Lutheran Christian, will you join me in proclaiming and sharing God’s grace not just today on Reformation Sunday but everywhere that you encounter God’s grace in this world?// Amen!// (Copyright Tara L. Ulrich)

What Lifts You Up Friday Five?

2011-10-28T07:47:00.000-07:00

With that in mind I wonder what lifts you? So I'd like you to share 5 things

1. A Scripture- it might be a verse or a whole book! There are so many books and verses in the Bible that uplift me. One of my favorites is "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." I also love Psalm 30...holds a special place in my heart and makes me smile!

2. A piece of music. I'm definetely not a singer or a musician but I love music. Ben Larson has a song that put Psalm 30 to music. Love it! Jars of Clay "Love Song for a Savior" is another fave! There are so many more I could name. Lately one of my new faves is anything by Francisca Battestelli!

3. A place. Super Awesome Bible Camp that I worked at forever! Wartburg Seminary. All these places feel like "home" to me!

4. A person/ group of people So many...my friend Sonflower child! My group of seminary friends! My family! And so many more...you know who you are!!!!
5. Something you do...Spend time with family and friends, watch one of my fave movies, listen to some great music, etc!!

Wednesday Tidbits

2011-10-26T21:10:00.000-07:00

Confirmation tonight was fun! I used the smell of popcorn popping to talk about the 4th petition to the Lord's Prayer, "Give us this day our daily bread." Then I had them engage in caring conversation, "Is it harder or easier to pray for food etc when you can smell it, see it, etc or when you cant? So fun to watch our mentors/mentees engage and talk to each other. I love that its about teaching them and helping them take faith home!
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So many of my friends are having babies! So excited for them. My colleague became a new grandpa last night....their first granddaughter. So precious! What a gift from God!
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As many of you my faithful readers know, Im constantly thinking and reflecting on my singleness. Im so ready to find my Mr. Right etc. And as I am at the time in my life when I am so ready and yearn so deeply for these things, I find myself realizing how much harder it is. I am trying to be patient and trust in God but that is so much easier said than done especially when friends are announcing their engagement or talking about their new child. I honestly am so excited for them but find myself holding back some because it is something I yearn so deeply for. Will I ever walk down the aisle? Will I ever be a mom and hold my precious child in my arms? And then I find myself thinking about what if it doesnt happen, then maybe I could adopt etc. I honestly can say I haven't really thought about that but it is something that has popped into my mind more recently.
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So thankful and blessed for the awesome friends and family in my life. I wish I could see more of you more often. Tonight a friend posted about his approval language. I remember so well that day and am so thankful for the people that walked with me etc. I am humbled by what you/they have taught me. You have blessed my life in more ways than I could ever imagine!
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Well thats the end of this Wednesday tidbits post. Goodnight friends and faithful readers!!

Patience

2011-10-25T18:55:00.000-07:00

I normally consider myself a pretty patient person, but lately my patience has especially been tested. I long for the day that I meet my Mr. Right and can start my own family. Just the other day yet another friend announced her engagement. Honestly, I am so happy and excited for her! Yet it is in moments like these, that my patience really gets tested. At 33 years old, Im so ready and want these things so badly in my own life. It's hard to trust that God is with me in the midst of all of this but the truth is that God IS with me. I keep looking down at the neon green bracelet on my wrist that I got at a cancer benefit the other day. It reads "Trust in God" and on the other side "Faith Hope." Sometimes thats easier said than done though. I long and yearn so deeply for these things in my life. Part of me wonders if it will ever happen for me and the other part of me is trying to be patient! I just wish it wasnt so hard and frustrating...

Stages of Life Friday Five

2011-10-21T08:59:00.003-07:00

Jan at RevGalBlogPals writes, "For today's Friday Five, I am suggesting that we each divide our age into 5 sections. You don't have to say your age or ages for the different parts, unless you want to. In each of the 5 points, please describe a memorable and/or significant event, either good or unpleasant"

1. The birth of my sister! I love my sister so much! We fought a lot when we were little but we are pretty close now. Shortly after my sister's birth is when my mom had her nervous breakdown. It is so much a part of who I am!

2. My parent's divorce! Not exactly what you want to happen when you are a sophomore in high school. Ill never forget the words that came out of my dad's mouth that day. He was like,its not that I dont love your mom anymore, Its just that I cant handle this illness anymore!"

3. Graduating High School and working at SuperAwesome Bible Camp. It is where I finally heard my call to ministry. That place will always hold a special place in my heart.

4. Wartburg Seminary! Blessed to have this place and these people as a part of my life. I love them all so much!

5. Now-Today! I love my job and where I am in my life. However I must admit that I am ready for that next stage in my life; marriage, family, etc. There are days when I wonder if it will ever happen for me. And then there are other days when I find myself just patiently waiting and fully trusting in God.

The Door to the Church

2011-10-16T18:55:00.003-07:00

This weekend has been an awesome, refreshing, faith-filled weekend that has me thinking about a lot of things. Vibrant Faith Ministries talks about how home is church too! They are so right! I realized something this weekend in the course of our conversations. When my parents got divorced, it would have made such a difference in my life and my sister's life if our parents came with us to Confirmation etc. The reality is that families are no longer 2.5 kids, a mom and a dad, and a cat or a dog. So how can we equip and help families to realize that home is church too. This morning we had wonderful people from Vibrant Faith Ministries with us in worship. I love what he said about how our doors are our front doors to the church. What would happen if all the homes in the world saw their front doors as the door to the church? Im not suggesting that it has to be complicated. In fact, it isnt at all. Talk to each other, engage in caring conversation, spend time being the church in the world, keep up with those riturals/traditions that are a part of your home and represent who and whose you are. My mom is one of the most faith-filled and faithful women that I know. Even though she lives with a mental illness, she has never let that get in the way of who and whose she is. She has been for me the embodiment of what faith and the church look like. For me, church truly did begin at home. And I think for many of us that is the case but I also think that sometimes we dont realize the impact we have on our children, grandchildren, etc. Praise be to God for my mom and other caring adults who I caught my faith from. This week may you take the time as a home to talk to each other, to pray together, or to do something missonal together.

I cant help but think of all the doors I encounter in a day. What if all those doors were a reminder that the front doors of the church arent at the church, but everywhere that we encounter Christ? At work? At play? in our cars etc?

I am reminded of the words found in Deuteronomy 6:6-9 "Keep these words that I am commanding you today in your heart. Recite them to your children and talk about them when you are at home and when you are away, when you lie down and when you rise. Bind them as a sign on your forehead, and write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates."

(The thoughts and opinions represented in this post are entirely my own. However I truly do believe that the work and mission of Vibrant Faith Ministries is extremely important to the church today!)

Scattered Friday Five

2011-10-14T11:15:00.002-07:00

Revkjarla at RevGalBlogPals wrtites, "So, I don't know about you, but I have had quite the scattered week. Sometimes, life is that way, right?
In the spirit of Scattered-ness, I offer you a scattery kind of Friday Five":

1. I lose my keys all of the time. Even if they are in my hand, I still am looking for them. Sigh! What is something you chronically looking for, if anything? Hmmm...at 33 years old and as I watch all my friends getting married and starting their families, I would say I am chronically searching for my future husband!

2. What movie are you looking forward to watching sometime in the future? (me, the new Footloose!) I agree with Revkjarla, Im excited to see the new Footloose too.

3. What is one of your favorite comfort foods? (me, pizza. hands down). Any German food----knoephla soup, dumplings, strudels, etc....its what Grandma always makes for my sister and I. A good American comfort food for me would be chili, meatloaf, pizza, etc.

4. Story time. Tell us a story of one your favorite people that has touched, blessed your life. This is such a hard question to answer because so many people have blessed my life's journey. There are those that I went to seminary with, those that I worked at SuperAwesomeBibleCamp with, etc. But since I have to pick one, Ill start with one of my most recent blessings. This summer I attended the Lutheran Academy of the Rockies! IT WAS AWESOME! While there I met so many wonderful people. Dana and his wife sure are two people that I am so glad to have blessed my life. We hiked and talked and had many wonderful discussions. I am blessed to have them both in my life. I feel like I have known them much longer than I have! :)

5. What do you do to focus or calm or center yourself? (please, I need ideas!!!)Spend time with friends and family, praying, praying, praying, and writing!

BONUS: Share the first thing (or second thing) that comes to your mind after your read this! Thinking about my friend who got news of cancer this week. Continue prayers for her and her family!

Risky Business

2011-10-11T14:13:00.003-07:00

"We are not that far apart, God can see us both!" These words were written on a friend's carepage last week and they have been running through my head a lot especially today. Do you ever feel like you are alone? in life? in your vocation? in ministry? in the world? If you are like me you probably answered yes to this question and it probably feels like such a daunting feeling. How else are you suppose to feel when you see these words; solitary, lonesome, forlorn, and desolate under the definition of alone in Webster's dictionary?

When I graduated from seminary in 2005, I knew that I had made the right decision. God truly was calling me into the ministry of Word and Service; Diaconal Ministry. There has been and continues to be no doubt in my mind! Yet at times, it feels like such a lonely call. So many don't understand my call to Diaconal Ministry. Heck; they probably dont even know what a Diaconal Minister does or is! (Now don't get me wrong; this isn't the case for everyone!) But the reality is that the roster is such a new (compared to the other two rosters in the ELCA) roster that there is so much to educate and for the world to learn about us! My call calls me to "home and family ministry" yet so many see it as a call to "youth ministry."

Today I am having one of those days where the joy seems to be outweighed by the loneliness. In other words, today I'm feel quite a lone. I am currently the entire DM roster in my synod! Boy who would have thought that I would be a pioneer??!?! And in the midst of the loneliness, I am reminded of those who have seen my gifts to this ministry. I think of my seminary advisor who reminded me that it would have been so much easier to walk out that door and quit and never look back. I am reminded of the many who bring such joy into my life when they "get" Diaconal Ministry or even approach the question with me! I am reminded of the gift and blessing of my DM brothers and sisters in the ELCA and around the world. I am also reminded that not everyone of us has the same gifts; "There is a variety of gifts, but the same call." Jesus himself took a risk when he washed the feet of his disciples. It was completely out of the norm and wasn't at all what people expected! Yet Jesus did it anyways!! I have to remember that even when I feel lonely etc.

The truth of the matter is that I (we) are never alone! God walks with us at all times. And it is especially in the times when we are feeling lonely and afraid and like God isnt even here when God says, NO WAY! LOOK! LISTEN! HERE AM I!!!! Or in the words of my friend on her carepage post, We truly arent that far apart. God can see us both." In other words, WE ARE NEVER ALONE!(even when that is the only feeling we can seem to comprehend)

A Smattering of Tidbits

2011-10-09T16:49:00.003-07:00

Today has been a FULL day; full of lots of activities. Days like this remind me of how truly I feeled to this community of faith and how awesome life is. But then silly things happen that are pretty much out of my control. And when those things happen, I am reminded of how important it is to remember the blessings in my life.
First, the photograph we hired to do Confirmation pictures didnt show and the church office manager called to confirm etc. GRRR....so we ended up punting and taking pics on the church camera etc. Makes me so sad! Then we asked the 9th graders to help serve the banquet because they will be confirmed next year. Somehow the parents didnt realize they needed to be there too but it all worked out!

So instead of thinking about these things, Im going to reflect on the blessings of today---

1. Getting a picture from one of my favorite three year olds (Thanks C)

2. Getting high-fives from all the three year olds at our Prayer Milestone

3. Registering some youth for the 2012 ELCA Youth Gathering

4. Having a friend make faces at me from the back of the sanctuary while I was helping Pr. M with communion (She is such an instigator. I was trying so hard not to laugh!)

5. Making Wild Rice Soup from the new church cookbook

6. Eating that Wild Rice Soup

7. Catching up with my shows from the past week; especially Glee!

8. Walking outside after church into a pouring rain, I couldnt help but smile as I thought about the little girl Pastor M just baptized and it also reminded me of my Baptism!

9. Talking to my fave sister online for a few minutes!

10. Being reminded of how awesome God is. I think of my dear friend who is awaiting results from her doctor to see if she has cancer. On her carepage, she talks about how we arent that far apart because God can see us both. I love that image!!

God bless my dear friends and readers!

"Jesus with Flesh On"

2011-10-04T20:18:00.002-07:00

Have you ever thought about how sometimes we just need "Jesus with flesh on" in our lives? As many of you know, last week I posted an entry about a dear friend from seminary who was diagnosed with cancer. However when they did the biopsy the doctor gave her some hopeful and hope-filled news; the tumor didnt look cancerous. But now its time to wait; time to wait until the results come back. How hard it is to be patient when we have to wait. My friend has a website where she has been posting updates etc. Last night she talked about how she loves Jesus but sometimes she needs to have "Jesus with flesh on" and for her, that has been the hundreds, no thousands who have been praying for her from miles near and far away from her. She is so right though. Sometimes we just need "Jesus with flesh on" We need to see Jesus through the eyes, ears, smiles, hugs, etc of those who love, care, and pray for us! What an awesome image that is! This friend has reminded of how awesome it is to have brothers and sisters in Christ who hold you up when you dont think you can do it yourself; who love you for who you are and will pray for you no matter what. What a blessing and a gift that is! Last week my youth at church were "Jesus with flesh on" when they collected 1,383 pounds of food for our local food pantry. So my friends, I challenge you to be "Jesus with flesh on" not just today but every day!

God Is So Good!

2011-09-30T19:34:00.002-07:00

God is so good!
God is so good!
God is so good!

All week we have been interviewing our Confirmands about their faith papers. We have been asking them, "What/Who is the church?" A lot of the times they will say the church is the building but the truth is the church is everywhere that two or three are gathered in God's holy name! This has become more evident than ever today as Good News has been delivered to a dear friend and colleague. We have been wearing yellow in support of the type of cancer she was diagnosed with. We have been praying constantly since the news was delivered. And then this news today...In the words of another friend, I am utterly speechless! God does hear our prayers especially when so many are praying! I cant even seem to put into words how awesome and awe-some this news is! God truly is good...and amazing! God thank you for bring us hopeful and hope-filled news today!

Thanks Be To God!

Home Friday Five

2011-09-30T08:41:00.003-07:00

1) Where was your first home? In Scottsbluff-Gering NE! I believe we actually lived across the river in Gering. My mom grew up in Scottsbluff and G and G Humphrey lived in Scottsbluff.

2) Do you ever dream about places you used to live? Not usually

3) If you could bring back one person from your past to sit at your dinner table, who would you choose? I cant pick just one! I would have to say my Grandma and Grandpa and my best friend from elementary and high school Mandy

4) What's your favorite room in your current living space? My Living Room and My Bedroom

5) Is there an object or an item where you live now that represents home? If not, can you think of one from your childhood? Yes! I have a picture above my bed that used to be above my grandparents bed. It is pictures of my sister, me, and my cousins when we were little. Reminds me of going to G and G's house! I also have a pic of my mom, dad, and I when I was like three.

Those Three Little Words

2011-09-28T12:20:00.003-07:00

We don't say it to each other nearly enough!

Those three little words that have so much power
Those three little words, "I Love You!"

Lately so many people have been diagnosed with cancer!
Yesterday it was a dear colleague and friend from seminary!

Together I know that we will continue to pray for her.....and each other.
But it is still hard!

We still need to tell each other that we love each other!
Not just on days where cancer diagnoses happen
But every day of our lives!

So you my dear friends and readers, I want you to know
"I love you!"

Finished Friday Five

2011-09-23T13:42:00.003-07:00

1. Have you completed something? What was it, and how did you celebrate?
I would say graduating seminary was something that I am so proud to have completed. It was not an easy journey for me at all. I celebrated by finally graduating and celebrating it with friends and family.

2. Is there something you are waiting to begin?
A relationship...Someday I hope to begin to date my future husband.

3. Is there a project you keep putting off and why?
Hmmm not really.

4. What would be your dream project/job? Oh man....I have always dreamt of being an author.

5. Be creative, you are going to publish a book/ song/poem, what is its title?
Since I can remember, I always said that I would name my publishing company "Majestic Saviour Publishing." The title of the book would depend on what type of book etc it was. If it was a collection of my poetry,I would probably call it,"Prayer to Poetry" or something like that. If it was my autobiography, I would probably call it...ok Im not sure...so Im going to have some fun here...Friends, if you were to help me name my book, what would you call it?

"O Lord God, You Have Called Us...."

2011-09-22T18:05:00.003-07:00

"O Lord God, you have called us, your servants, to ventures of which we cannot see the ending, on paths we have yet to discover, through perils and joys unknown. Give us faith to go out with good courage, moving where your Spirit calls and empowers us, And knowing that your hand is leading us and your love supporting us, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen" These words are words that I just need to hear and be reminded of sometimes! I love my job and in no way are these words geared towards that. I am just saddened how sometimes people treat other people. Let's just say tonight...I am clinging to these words. But I am also continuing to choose to focus more on the blessings in my life. Today those blessings are as follows:

++ Getting to have lunch with two great ladies and one of their grandsons
++ Coloring,playing and spending time with one of my favorite three year olds
++ Friends telling me that they are thankful for me (Thanks S!)
++ Sharing my writing with others
++ A Salted caramel mocha over a great meeting with wonderful colleagues

Why???????

2011-09-21T20:57:00.003-07:00

Something really struck me tonight...As I was perusing my Facebook page, I found yet another friend who is engaged and got engaged in the last week or so. Now dont get me wrong, I am so 100 percent happy for them! However I still find myself yearning, wondering, and yearning some more to find my Mr. Right. Two of these friends found their spouses at seminary, I find myself asking the question "Why didnt it happen for me there?" I know that is a silly question to ask but its honest! I know that I am not the only one who wonders and yearns for this type of relationship either. I am thankful that my good friend L still is single! But why isn't it happening for me? I know and trust in God. However at the age of 33, my biological clock continues to tick. I love spending time with children and hope to have mine someday but what if that doesn't happen for me? I have so many friends who tell me that they are praying for someone to come into my life to bless me and I trust in their prayers and God's promises. Yet it's still so easy to yearn for what so many of my friends have; to yearn for that one thing that I deeply desire more than anything in the world. So today I am choosing to continue to trust, to continue to believe that it will happen at some point at point, to continue to be a blessing to others and in return hopefully to be blessed by someone else and eventually find the man God has in store for me!

And so I am going to leave you with the blessings in my life from the last several days:
+ Waking up to a little one saying "Mom, the ding ding woke me up." I seriously was laying in my bed in the other room laughing and with a smile on my face
+ Spending time with wonderful colleagues in ministry
+ Having a member of the church leave me a beautiful message on FB
+ Playing the card game "Unpredictable"
+ A Child's laugh
+ The return of fall and all my fave shows

What are you thankful for today?

Seeking What? Friday Five!

2011-09-16T10:21:00.004-07:00

Jan from RevGalBlogPals writes, "Seeking is rejoicing. Rejoicing comes from the seeking, NOT the end of glory, heaven, enlightenment, or whatever. Seeking is the journey--RIGHT NOW" So for this Friday Five, list what you are seeking, whether it is trivial, profound, or ordinary--whatever you would like to share! List 5 and add a bonus if you feel like it!

1. I am seeking my Mr. Right. I know it will come in due time but Im so ready. And at 33 years of age, I have to admit that my biological clock is tick, tick, ticking away!

2. After I find my Mr. Right, I am seeking children; our family together!

3. I am seeking to find "real mail" in my mailbox. I love getting real mail!

4. I am seeking to spend time with friends that I miss dearly!

5. I am seeking to watch the new season of Glee!!

Most of the stuff I am seeking for these days doesn't need to happen right away...not too profound...but probably more ordinary! Hope you all are good.

Blessings

2011-09-15T19:54:00.002-07:00

Sometimes it is so easy to get caught up in the busyness of life etc that all we can focus on is that; the craziness of life. After reading a friend's blog post tonight, I decided I was going to spend more time focusing on the blessings; the "every day holy" of life! So what am I thankful for today?

1. Sitting in my apartment drinking tea from a great gift my friend Sonflower Child gave me as a bday gift this year.

2. The awesome friends and family in my life. My life has been enriched by each of you. I miss so many of you so much and wish we could see each other more often.

3. A job that I love

4. Health

5. Going to work out and being greeted by the other ladies who work out there too.

6. Hearing a baby coo or getting my "baby fix" for the day

7. An unexpected letter in the mail! What a nice surprise that was! (An unexpected phone call is always great too!)

8. Spending time with awesome colleagues in ministry

9. Project Runway!!! And any of my other fave shows. Sometimes mindless tv is what I need to debrief and chill out at after a long day!

10. Fall

There are so many more I could probably name but this is a start. What are you thankful for today?

September 11, 2001; Ten Years Later

2011-09-10T14:22:00.006-07:00

Tomorrow marks the Tenth Anniversary of the terrorist attacks that took place on September 11, 2001. We all remember where we were and what we were doing on that morning just like my parent's generation knew where they were and what they were doing when President Kennedy was assassinated.

I was at my dad's house that morning. I had recently finished my internship in Beach ND with the Golden Valley News and the Billings County Pioneer. And after my internship, I had spent some time working/volunteering at my favorite place Camp of the Cross Ministries. And now the morning of September 11Th, I was watching "Little House on the Prairie" when it was interrupted with the news of the morning. I couldn't believe what I was seeing on our television set. Two planes fly straight into the World Trade Centers! Another plane crashing into the Pentagon. And then the heroes of Flight 93 who took control of their plane and flew it into a field in Shanks ville PA. If it weren't for their heroic acts, who knows where that plane would have landed/crashed? For that day and the days following, we couldn't help but grieve with the thousands who lost family members. Would today be the darkest day that I would know or would I see more darkness?

That next fall, I found myself starting seminary. I'm not sure that the events of September 11th called me into the ministry of word and service. But I have a feeling that in its own way, it did! At seminary, I remember many of my new friends telling me where they were that morning. Many of them were in class and then at 9:30 am CST they gathered for chapel. As the events of 9-11 unfolded, they stood in the Refectory with their eyes glued to the television sets. I remember my friend A telling us that the President of the seminary came in, turned off the televisions, and said, "Lets go to chapel. Chapel is the place we need to be right now!" So very true! And so they all gathered that morning,praying for the events unfolding in our world!

Now ten years later, man and woman are still in Afghanistan and other countries continuing to fight for our freedom. Ten years later, Bin Laden is dead! The day of his death I had a hard time grasping the joy so many were experiencing. I understood their joy but couldn't bring myself to feel that same joy. Ten years later, the children of those killed on 9-11 are showing us what it means to share God's grace with so many others!(Did any of you hear any of them speak on the Dateline special last night or read their interviews in the recent issue of People magazine?) Ten years later, we still remember; we still remember that horrific day. Ten years later, we are grateful for the many EMS workers, firefighters, and so many others who went into those buildings to bring survivors to safety. Ten years later, I find myself promising not to forget that dark day but also promising to share God's grace and forgiveness when it is so hard to forgive!

Whats in My Office? Friday Five

2011-09-09T17:18:00.003-07:00

Revkjarla from RevGalBlogPals writes,"I don't know about you, but I am a notoriously messy creative worker. My workspace at home, and at my office is always littered with books and papers and mail and pens and keys and mugs....and tschotske (momentos, weird things, etc.) I am looking right now at a pair of dice that someone gave me that have "God" on each side, so that anyway you roll 'em, you end up with God. Different, right? So, this Friday Five is all about YOUR tschotske in your workplace. Describe five things in/on your workspace (however you define workspace--I tend to spill over onto bedside tables, end tables, coffee tables...create wherever I land) that are special to you! Bonus points for pictures!"

If you have ever been in my office, you know that I like to keep it SUPER clean! Yeah thats me! When I was at the MotherShip (endearing name for my seminary), the admissions office often would call me to see if they could show my room to a potential student. They knew even at the last minute it would be clean! However I still have a few things that I like to keep in my office!

1. A woodcarved animal! My neighbors at my apartment are an elderly couple. V loves to woodcarve and when I first moved in, he gave me an animal that he woodcarved so I have it on display in my office!

2. A cute mini Nativity! If you are a regular reader of this blog or know me well, you know that I am a collector of Nativities. A dear couple who volunteers at church bought me this adorable Nativity but someone else had the same idea so I have two of the same one. I decided to keep theres at church on display in my office to remind me that we shouldnt just celebrate the gift of Jesus just one day a year!

3. A framed picture of two of my dearest Diaconal Ministry friends. The picture was taken when we were at a DM gathering in Carefree, Arizona at Spirit in the Desert Retreat Center! My friend R and I asked TE to go on a hike with us and talk about Diaconal Ministry. TE is a mentor in many ways to both of us!

4. In my office at my apartment, I have this pinky squishy pig that was bought at Walmart. It is a great stress reliever toy!

5. A couple of candles (which arent very exciting compared to the other schotzkes!)

September Friday Five

2011-09-02T15:54:00.003-07:00

What are 5 things that the beginning of September mean to you?

1. My Birthday! :) I was a Labor Day baby. I will celebrate my 33rd birthday tomorrow! I love that September means another year of life!

2. The beginning of Fall activities at my job. This year Fall came awfully fast and I kind of wish it was still the beginning on August. But I do love that in September, I get to see the homes of the congregation, hear about their summers, etc!

3. Farmer's Markets! I love picking up fresh veggies etc at Farmers Markets in the fall! I love that I can use these items to make great stir-frys etc!

4. Cool Crisp Fall Days

5. Harvesting

Bonus: What's one thing you could do without! Hmmmm....thats a harder one to answer. I guess probably the shorter days...getting darker out earlier etc

Happy Labor Day weekend to you all!

Friday Fivin' It

2011-08-26T19:37:00.002-07:00

It is Friday which is my day off and it is raining, which means that an outing to the Yorkshire Sculpture Park has been cancelled. So what to do, I am currently scanning the internet for possibilities. I think we will head into York to visit the Art Gallery.

How about you do you do on a rainy summers day?

1. At home? Usually I curl up with a nice book or a good movie!!!

2. In your local area? I might head to the mall to see a movie or go shopping at the mall or just go to a local coffee shop and meet up with a good friend.

3. If you are away on holiday? If Im at a hotel, I probably would go swimming. Maybe order in pizza. Read a book. Maybe even might take some time for writing.

4. Name a rainy day read. Actually whatever Im currently reading! :)

5. Is there a piece of music/ a poem/ story that cheers you up? There is so much that makes me feel better. The movie "Because of Winn Dixie" always makes me smile! Jars of Clay Love Song for a Savior is my feel good song too!

Bonus: post a rainy day photo! One of my favorite photos after a nice ND rain!

My 425th Post

2011-08-24T20:17:00.004-07:00

Wow...my 425th post! It is fun to see people reading my blog but it would be even cooler if more people left me comments. It has been fun to see who and where is reading my blog! Makes it all worth it!

Do you ever feel like when it rains it pours? Feels like its been one of those weeks! If I could say more I would, just a lot of stuff happening this week! Please say a prayer for peace it would be much appreciated! Please let me know if there is something I can pray for you about!

Blessings to you my readers! God bless you all!

Proud To Be An ELCA Lutheran!

2011-08-21T16:12:00.003-07:00

I am so proud to be an ELCA Lutheran!

It is hard to believe that two years ago today the ELCA passed its implementing resolutions on their Human Sexuality Social Statement. I know that it hasn't been an easy road at all for the church but it is totally worth celebrating. Some of my favorite people who definetely have the gifts for ministry are now able to serve in the church! PRaise be to God! And because of that I am proud to be an ELCA Lutheran!

This week as I watched the churchwide assembly online, I was saddened to learn that approximately 500 congregations have left the ELCA but then I was even more heartened to hear that of the 10,000 congregations in the ELCA their giving is up. And because of that giving, I am proud to say I am an ELCA Lutheran!

Presiding Bishop Mark Hanson asked the gathered body on the first day of the assembly if they were ready to be moved by the power of the spirit. He didnt answer the question but promised that it would be answered by the end of the week. On Friday, he asked the gathered body to get out their voting machines. He gave them three choices: 1. Are we ready to move? 2. ARe we stuck and not going anywhere? 3. Are we already moving? The cool thing was that over 600 people said that the church was already moving! The other 400 were split between the other choices. And because we are already moving, I am proud to be an ELCA Lutheran!

I am proud to be an ELCA Lutheran because we are a place where everyone is welcomed. There is a place for you here!

I am proud to be an ELCA Lutheran because it realizes that we all have been freed in Christ to serve.

I am proud to be an ELCA Lutheran because we understand what it means to share God's love, grace, and mercy with the world even when it isnt the easiest thing in the world to do!

I am proud to be an ELCA Lutheran because they reach out beyond not just the church walsl but into other countries. I am proud that we continue to walk with Haiti, Japan, the people in Minot ND and the people in Joplin Missouri.

Because of these and so many other reasons, I am more proud than ever to be an ELCA Lutheran! Praise be to God!

Road Trippin' Friday Five

2011-08-19T12:37:00.002-07:00

Tell us about five road trips--in your childhood, in your family, in your recent past, with friends, and/or hoped-for-places-to-drive-to. Don't forget the one that stands out as the BEST or as the worst time.

1. My friend Heather and I decided to take this crazy road trip one summer back in about 2003 or so. It is the BEST one I can think of! We left the seminary and drove through Iowa, Missouri and into Arkansas. We spent several days with my aunt/uncle. We visited my cousin and her family. We toured the Sam Walton Museum and went to the DaySpring outlet store. After a few days with them, we drove to my friends internship site and spent a Sunday with the congregation she interned with. Then we headed into Oklahoma where we spent some time on historic Route 66. We ate at Eskimo Joes. We visited her aunt/uncle and cousins and went into Oklahoma City to the OK City memorial. After a day or so with them, we headed back to Iowa stopping in Kansas to visit a friend of hers from college. We laughed so much that week!

2. Roadtripping to my grandparents; going from ND to NE. I remember some of the silly places we would stop for little breaks like Carhenge (or is it called StoneHenge) just outside Alliance NE) It was always so good to spend time with G and G.

3. This summer roadtripping by myself to Colorado for the Lutheran Academy of the Rockies. The only thing that would have made it better would have been to have someone to talk to on the long drive. Luckily I split it into two days and spent one night at a seminary friend and his family's house. So good to catch up with them.

4. Three summers ago I was visiting my friend L from seminary and we decided to go on a day roadtrip. We took this random road that L had heard a lot about. If I remember we got a little lost but we laughed a lot and had so much fun!

5. When my friend L and my friend Stumbling from seminary went to Wilwaukee during Reading and Research days. L had done LVC there and we were going to spend some time with her LVC friends. We toured Sprecher Brewing. We ate good Mexican food. But most of all we laughed, and laughed, and laughed some more!

The Holy Spirit is Alive and Working Indeed!

2011-08-19T08:43:00.003-07:00

The Holy Spirit is alive and working indeed!

The Holy Spirit is alive and working through new friends I have met on Twitter this week as I have watched the ELCA CWA online.

The Holy Spirit is alive and working especially through prayer this day!

Earlier today, I found myself with a prayer request. Immediately I went to my Twitter feed and tweeted my tweeps to ask them to pray. The crazy thing is a week ago I never would have asked for it via Twitter because I barely used my Twitter account. However this week I have grown to love Twitter. Shortly after I tweeted, I had people replying saying they were praying! WOW!!! People across the US were praying because of my simple prayer request. I also texted a friend who is also there at the CWA and asked for her prayers. She texted back that she would pray too! As I watched and participated with them in worship, I truly could feel their prayers ascending!

The Holy Spirit is INDEED alive and working!

How, Why and When Did I Become A Church Nerd?

2011-08-18T08:36:00.003-07:00

I've been thinking a lot about why I am an ELCA Lutheran especially this past week as I have watched (via the Internet live feed) our national church gather in Orlando. When I first started watching the live feed, I found myself confessing to my friends that I truly am a church geek but then I thought to myself, "Why in the world am I a church geek and when did I become one?" And to be honest, I can't pinpoint exactly when it happened but what I can pinpoint is when I truly heard my call to serve God in this larger church known as the ELCA!

You see like most people seminary was NEVER in the books for me. It was the last thing I saw myself doing but little did I know that the Holy Spirit would show me differently. As a high school senior, living in small town ND, I was working at our local theatre a couple nights a week. But as I prepared to go off to college, I found myself looking for something that would pay me a little more substantially and that I would enjoy. My uncle suggested I go work at a local ELCA bible camp. I thought what the heck and decided to apply. The interview was the WORST interview of my life......I seriously dont think I looked at the interviewer once but rather looked the whole time at the table. However he decided to give me a chance and I went to work at that Bible camp less than 24 hours after I graduated high school. During the course of the summer, I found myself truly opening up about my mom's struggle with a mental illness! (She had a nervous breakdown right after my sister was born when I was about three years old) After that summer, I went to college and then that next summer came to work at camp again. In the middle of the summer, we were doing mid-summer evals and the camp director told me he didnt think that I would make it last summer but he hired me thinking he would take me as long as he could take me. Then he proceeded to tell me that he couldnt get rid of me! I worked at that camp for approximately 7 summers!

After college, I always thought I would be a journalist but working at camp changed that for me. I went with a friend to tour a seminary. When I got there and stepped foot onto WTS's campus, I felt God calling me there. I knew I wasnt called to be a pastor but felt called to be a part of this wider church and wasnt sure how that would unfold. After starting seminary, I found myself reading a book titled, "From Word to Sacrament." As I read that book, certain phrases jumped off the page at me, "bridging church and world" "word and service" etc. Suddenly I knew that God was calling me to this new roster that I was reading about: Diaconal Ministry! Through the power of the Holy Spirit, God was calling me to wash the feet of all God's people including people like my own mother who daily struggle with this illness!

This past April I celebrated the 5th anniversary of my consecration as a Diaconal Minister! And that my friends is when I think I truly became a church nerd! It is when I finally saw myself not just as one person but a person who truly could and can make a difference not just in the church building but outside the church walls as well.

I find myself continuing to watch the online feed because I feel it is important for me to listen and ponder what the future of this church looks like. Like Reformer Martin Luther, I find myself wondering how we can reform this church in the midst of this world and context. I find myself continuing to watch because these issues are important to me and to those I care about.

I find myself watching because it makes me feel like I am a part of this national church even though I am not a delegate to the gathering in Orlando!

But most importantly, I find myself watching because we all have been freed in Christ to Serve! Praise be to God! (Sorry for the long length of this blog entry.)

All A Twitter About Being A Pebble in the Shoe of the Church and Living Lutheran

2011-08-16T13:44:00.005-07:00

My mind is full of a scattering of thoughts today!

Thankful for those who were elected to be voting delegates at this year's ELCA Churchwide Assembly but also wishing I was there too! I never realized how much my life has become about technology. I've considered myself a pretty technically savy person but as of late, I've realized how much more I am becoming ingrained in this technology. Internet, Twitter, Facebook, a Kindle, Blogging and the list goes on and on. Last night I found myself tweeting while watching the live stream of the ELCA churchwide assembly. Today I got up early (way early for me) to watch the live stream. Then this afternoon as I worked on stuff in my office, I found myself once again follow along on the Tweeter feed and following along/participating in the Bible Study as well. (I really should have been working on/finishing my sermon for Sunday!)It amazes me how much technology is playing into our world. No wonder this generation is so ingrained by technology. I still am not sure how I feel about technology in general; is it good or is it bad? But what I have come to realize is that it can be helpful. I am excited that even though Im not at the CWA11 I can tweet and follow along with those that are there and those that are also following on the Twitter feed. Makes me feel like a little part of me is part of what is happening in Orlando as well.

"Sometimes you just have to be a pebble in the shoe of the church!" This statement is a statement a friend shared awhile back and it makes me smile because I think it encompasses my call to "diakonia." Sometimes, ok most of the time, I feel like Im such a stickler, pain in the butt, etc but what I've come to realize is that if Im not going to stand up for myself, other rostered leaders and the lay leaders of this church, who will? I understand that when guiding documents were created etc they were created with certain things in mind but like our culture, I believe the culture of the church has changed as well. Therefore I believe it is time to change the language. So for all my dear friends and colleagues in Christ who understand where Im coming from, Im sticking to my guns, "Sometimes you just have to be the pebble in the shoe of the church!"

What does it mean to "Live Lutheran?" I love that the assembly has been showing videos answering this question. They all have been fantastic and make me smile! It also has gotten me thinking about what it means for me to "Live Lutheran?" For me, Living Lutheran is living out my call to diakonia; my call to wash the feet of all God's people. Living Lutheran is telling all to come to the living water. Living Lutheran is helping all God's people see what it means to share his love with the world and to see how beautiful are the feet of those who bring Good News. Living Lutheran is about grace, faith, hope, and the promise of the Resurrection. For in the words of WND Synod Bishop Mark Narum, We are an Easter People or in the words of Haitian Pastor Josephus Livenson Lauvanus, "We will not be defined by rubble, because we are a people of the Restoration." In the words of the ELCA CWA11 theme, Living Lutheran is about being "Freed in Christ to Serve"; freed in Christ to serve the neighbor!!

Just Being Me

2011-08-03T14:08:00.003-07:00

Growing up, I've never been the prettiest or the brightest or the smartest person. In fact, I was a child who was picked on a lot during my elementary days. I was called some pretty awful things that I won't share here. And because of that,I've always been one who is very self-conscious of myself but today I was listening to my colleague and another pastor talk about how it is simply just about loving the people and being there for them. This made me realize something about myself. I truly need to "just be me"; just be who God created me to be; be authentic!! Often times I know that is easier said than done but there is so much freedom, grace, and truth in being who God wants me to be! This summmer and other times when I've met new people I've always wondered what to say, how I come across, and sometimes am even quiet (I know hard to believe!) because I am so self-conscious around them. But I've come to realize that if people really love me, they will love me for who I am. So I simply want to say "thank-you" to all those of you who have simply let me just be me; no strings attached! What a gift of grace that is and may I/we all daily share and remember that gift of grace!

Fun Choices Friday Five

2011-07-29T08:04:00.003-07:00

Sharon at RevGalBlogPals writes, "I am pinch hitting today, my first time, as your Friday Five RevGal. Like the song "The Macarena" was for Los Del Rio, this could very well be a one-hit wonder, so thanks for playing! Today we play off of one of my favorite and most memorable Friday Fives to blog from: Decisions, Decisions posted by Songbird last July 23. I went back to that post to make sure I had new choices for you to make. I found out -- again -- that she was then, as I have been recently, in the midst of a discernment process and thinking about what goes into decision making. A decision from history: There is a chair that still sits in the Assembly Room of the Pennsylvania State House (Independence Hall). Legend has it that it was George Washington's chair, the back carved with a half sun. Benjamin Franklin would look at it and wonder whether it was a rising or a setting sun. Eventually Franklin decided it was the hopeful symbol of the rising sun, a sign of the future of our new republic."

How do you decide? Check out the following pairs and tell which one of each appeals to you most:

1) Sunrise or Sunset---I like both but Id say Im more apt to see a sunset. When I worked at a Bible camp in Western ND for 7 summers, some of my fave moments and pictures were from seeing the sunset off of Lake Sakakawea! Beautiful!!

2) To the Mountains or To the Beach---Since I've finally gotten to experience both, I would say the Mountains. There is just something so holy about being in the mountains. When I was in Colorado for the first time this summer, I couldnt believe how the mountains and the sky just ran together. Hard to tell where one began and the other ended. Simply Beautiful!!!

3) Coffee or Tea---Tea all the way! Im not much of a coffee drinker at all. I like "fake" coffee like lattes, cappucinos etc but even before those, Ill choose tea!

4) Advent or Lent---Advent. There is just something about waiting for the birth of this christ child. But I also really appreciate Lent too...so I guess I would pick both in this case. I love the Holy Days leading up to Easter especially Maundy THursday since it is a reminder of my call to ministry; to wash the feet of all God's people.

5) "Raindrops on Roses" or "Whiskers on Kittens"---"Whiskers on Kittens"--I love cats! When my parents got divorced, it was a cat that kept my mom company...what comfort that brought to my sister and I!

BONUS: Tell more about one of the pairs. Why did you choose it? Difficult or easy choice? A story from your own experience? I chose mountains over the beach because like I stated earlier, it was such a holy experience. I like to swim and enjoy the beach but there is just something Holy-Spirit filled about being in the mountains for me.This was an easy choice for me!

Amazing Women Friday Five

2011-07-22T12:44:00.003-07:00

Sally at RevGalBlogPals writes, "Today is the Feast day of St Mary Magdalene, and as I've been pondering her life, and the inspiration she is I find in her a wonderful mix of struggle and devotion. She is both the woman who needed a deep healing and the woman who was declared (by many) to be the first amongst the apostles. She inspires me by the way she overcame so much to become so much. When I stop to think about the folk who do inspire me they are almost always overcomer's in some way or another.

With that in mind I bring you this Friday Five; List five people who inspire you to dare to step out into becoming more: Bonus question, a song or fictional character that inspires you to move beyond boundaries!"

1. My Momma!-Living with a mental illness all her life my mom has taught me so many wonderful lessons. She has never let her illness get her down etc. She is one amazing woman! I am so blessed to have her in my life!

2. My Best Friend Mandy-May she rest in peace!--I met Mandy when I was in 1st Grade she was a year older but had been held back because she had a kidney transplant and had missed lots of school. She became my best friend! I was in her wedding and shortly after her wedding, she began having seizures etc and they never figured out why. She has been gone now almost 4 years. I miss her!

3. My Grandma A---Grandma A has been married 65 years and has always been a hard-working farm wife. I know life wasnt always easy for her but yet she still has powered through. (Grandma B was pretty amazing too! Another wonderful example of a strong woman!)

4. My "little" sister---I know she sees me as a strong woman but in return, I also see her as a strong woman too!

5. It's so hard to pick just 5 because the women in my life have blessed me in so many ways. I have learned and grown and been blessed by each of you. My seminary friends, my DM friends, the new friends I met at the Lutheran Academy (You know who you are!)etc etc etc

The fictional character that makes me move beyond boundaries is Novalee Nation from Where the Heart Is. She doesnt let her bad luck keep her from reaching her dreams etc. I just love the way this movie makes me feel. I also think that the woman in the movie "Rent" are pretty amazing women who move us beyond boundaries as well. And recently I read the book "The Help," the main characters in the book make me move beyond boundaries as well but Im not going to be a book spoiler and give it away so youll just have to read the book to find out why if you havent already read the book!

Saying Goodbye

2011-07-17T13:45:00.005-07:00

Yuck! It's gross outside! That humidity is ridiculous but enough about the weather!

Have you ever had to say goodbye? As a child, I was never one who had to say goodbye a lot. We moved when I was four and never moved again. In fact, most of my dad's side of the family still lives in that community. Now there were the little goodbyes; saying goodbye to G and G after visiting them in the summer; saying goodbye to a new friend after meeting them at camp; etc! But then I went off to seminary----where I was constantly saying goodbye! There was the goodbyes to the seniors as they graduated. There was the goodbye to the middlers as they went off to internship. There was the goodbye as we finished and left our new friends behind etc. Being a Master of Arts student it seemed like I was ALWAYS saying goodbye! The class I started with was on internship when I graduated....and when they came back to campus for their senior year, I was graduated and gone. Being the emotional person that I am those goodbyes were NEVER EASY for me! I think part of it was because these friendships mean the world to me and I knew that they would always be there for me etc! But it was never easy! A dear friend told me about a book titled "Praying Our Goodbyes" which has been a huge help to me in learning to pray my goodbyes! (However saying goodbye is still much easier said than done!)

As many of you, my faithful readers, know one of my best guy friends got married a year ago this next week and I have always called him "the younger brother I never wanted" because he calls me "the older sister he never wanted." I am so happy for him and his wife! She is awesome, wonderful, etc! However they are moving on Tuesday. "Younger bro I never wanted" got a new teaching job so they are moving away from the community we have both lived in for the last four years. I am excited for this new adventure for them but I also find myself grieving! Grieving yet again; it was difficult when he got married because I knew our friendship probably would never be the same! Now dont get me wrong; I am so thankful he found the woman of his dreams etc, I just knew that it would involve some loss and grief; some grieving of a good friendship! I am so thankful for "Younger Brother Who I Never Wanted" and Mrs."Younger Brother Who I Never Wanted!"

To learn more about about our friendship, you can read about it at these two posts:

Younger Brother

How Hes Blessed My Life

Saying goodbye is never easy! But I think one of the reasons its hard for me is because these people/places/etc have been such blessings in my life! I just wish it was easier to say goodbye!!!

My Name Spells Gratitude Friday Five

2011-07-15T09:43:00.002-07:00

Jan at RevGalBlogPals writes, "A wise person once told me to make an ABC list of things I am grateful for any time I feel sad or depressed. It is a good practice when one is feeling happier than that, too. So for this Friday Five, I suggest that you use your name or nickname of about five letters and express your gratitude about something that starts with each letter. Some people have longer names, so you decide how you will go about this! (Last names, middle names, and nicknames count!)"

I usually dont use my actual name on this blog but thought I would break it for today's Friday Five! I decided to use my first and middle name so I could have a few more letters since my name isnt quite 5 letters long!

T---Tomatoes and other summer veggies! I love using fresh stuff from the garden etc to make my meals.

A---Andrea; my sister and my other family members too; Mom, Dad, G and G Ulrich, Uncle T, Uncle B, Uncle J, Aunt C, Aunt N, C and all the other family members in my life. Love them so much!

R---Rocky Mountain National Park. I am so glad I got to spend 10 days there. It was so peaceful and an awesome event. I also am thankful for the many new friends I met there. I am thankful for the experiences I had there!

A---Awesome, Amazing friends; new and old! I am so blessed to have them all in my life!

L---Love; God's love for me, the love of my family/friends, etc

E---(My) E-Reader or in other words my Kindle! I am so thankful for this awesome Christmas gift. I have been able to read more books since Christmas than I have in the last year! YAY!

E---Everything that God has blessed me with! :)

Breathing Down Your Joy?

2011-07-13T19:20:00.003-07:00

Hello my faithful readers! I've been thinking about how blessed my life! I am so thankful for friends---new and old. I'm thankful for my family and the examples they set for me. My grandparents celebrate their 65th wedding anniversary this summer. I'm thankful for a great job that I love (at least most days. I am thankful for so much. I am thankful that my sister finally got a teaching job after being back in this state for three years.

My life is so blessed but sometimes it is hard to remember that when there are still things I yearn for in my life; a family, a husband, etc. I know they will happen when they are suppose to but sometimes its hard to focus on the good stuff. Sometimes the bad outweighs the good! I'm not saying that Im not happy because I AM HAPPY. I've just been thinking about how easy it is for depression to sneak into our lives. Just a thought that has been on my mind.

A friend posted a quote on his FB page that I think really defines depression well. He said, "Depression is emptiness breathing down your joy." WOW huh?! What do you think my readers? Just been thinking about it since he posted that quote.

A Holy Spirit Moment

2011-07-03T09:42:00.002-07:00

Wow! Talk about a Holy Spirit moment! This morning I led worship and preached. The text I preached on was from Matthew where Jesus says, "Come to me all you who are weary and I will give you rest." As I began preaching, I looked out into the congregation and right in front of me was a man who is battling cancer. He is home for a short while and they came to church. He was there with his family. Wow; talk about holding back the tears. I continued to preach and found myself smiling back at this man and his family. After the service, his mom came up to me and gave me a hug. She thanked me for my beautiful sermon. Tears were streaming down her face and tears were streaming down my face! Here I wasnt sure about this sermon at ALL but it was exactly what so many needed to here. Thank you Holy Spirit!

Hiking to Victory and Blessed to Be a Blessing!

2011-06-30T21:07:00.007-07:00

Sometimes it seems I dont have much to say but the last ten days have been so full of life and light. Im not even sure I can put it into words! As I drove into the Rocky Mountains, Mount Meeker and Longs Peak stood before me and God's awesome creation seemed even more unbelievable. Just one big masterpiece; no dividing line at all! Being from the Midwest it took awhile to get used to the elevation etc! But on Monday, I braved it and took a chance. I went hiking with 28 other people. I found myself pushing myself. IT was a 2.8 mile hike in and a 2.8 mile hike back. I was visiting with my companions, getting to know them, etc but at a point, I hit a wall and didnt think I could finish but I found myself continuing to just keep walking... to keep putting one foot in front of the other. My new friends where there with me and kept cheering me on. I honestly dont think I could have done it with out them! I finally made it back and realized what I had done. I couldnt think of my mom and how she has lived her whole life with a mental illness. She just keeps pushing through. What an example she is for me! I am proud I finished the hike and was reminded by my new friends that it was no little task and I should be proud! Wow! What a journey! Along the way I found myself saying IM NOT GOING TO CRY...and I didnt! I just kept moving!

These last ten days will sustain me for awhile! I am sometimes surprised by how God blesses me with wonderful new people in my life. I was so suprised and blessed by each of them. Last night one of the presenters asked the people who have attended who of the new people surprised them the most etc. He said my name and told the speaker about the wonderful conversations we had. I wasnt sure how to respond. God has blessed me to be a blessing and I am so thankful for that gift!

Blogging from the Rockies

2011-06-23T12:33:00.000-07:00

Hi friends! Sorry I havent blogged for awhile. I am currently attending a continuing education event in Rocky Mountain National Park. Its been great. No cell service, Internet, etc so nice to be disconnected for a change. Im currently in town at a local coffee shop using their wi fi! I am hear until next Thursday. Enjoying the Rocky Mountain Air. Havent seen any animals YET but am hoping Ill get to see some Elk, or Bear, or something! Well I thought Id make this short. Hope you all are well!

Friday Fiving It!

2011-06-17T12:32:00.002-07:00

Jan writes, I am currently reading a book entitled Stairway of Surprise: Six Steps to a Creative Life by Michael Lipson. His premise is a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson: "I shall mount to paradise by the stairway of surprise." Lipson's book is about practicing or developing six inner functions--thinking, doing, feeling, loving, opening, and thanking.

So these categories of attention are a jumping off point for today's Friday Five:

Pick five of the six actions and write about how you are practicing them today or recently. For a bonus, write about the sixth one you originally didn't choose!

What or how are you

1. thinking? Spending time at a continuing education event.

2. doing? Im doing pretty good. Loving my life. Trying to spend some time writing etc. Reading on my Kindle. Taking care of myself!

3. feeling? Excited, Happy, Etc! I leave for a little continuing education event on Sunday after church. I'm headed to Colorado for the Lutheran Academy of the Rockies. Should be a good time. Looking forward to also making a few stops and catching up with some seminary friends as well.

4. loving? My family....but STILL waiting to find my Mr. Right. Im loving the summer weather.

5. opening? my mind to new ideas!

6. thanking? Trying to verbally thank my friends, family, etc when they do something extra special for me etc!

I should be getting ready for my trip but Im procrastinating instead!!! Im leaving after church for Colorado on Sunday and will be gone for 10+ days. Looking forward to getting away, seeing good friends, etc.

"How Beautiful Are the Feet...."

2011-06-12T12:32:00.003-07:00

"How beautiful are the feet of those who bring Good News!"

Awhile back, I blogged about this and today it hit me again. Recently many of my Diaconal Ministry friends and I have been having a conversation about how we would like to help educate churches, bishops, etc better about who we are etc.

I think this quote popped into my head again because as DMs we are called to pick up our basins and towels to serve all God's people. As you my faithful readers know, I felt a strong call to Diaconal Ministry because I saw how others treated my mom because she lives with a mental illnesss. God truly calls me/us to reach out to all God's people. We can wash anyone's feet whether it be in a prison cell, at a nursing home, at church, on a mission trip, etc etc etc!

For me, "Living Lutheran" means that I am called to show God's love, grace, and acceptance as a Diaconal Minister by bridging the gap between the church and the world. "Living Lutheran" for me means that I am also called to bring the needs of the world before all God's people. Also "Living Lutheran" means that I am called forth from Word and Sacrament to be freed in Christ to Serve. "Living Lutheran" means that it is important for me to live out my identity through "diakonia."
How else do you see DM "Living Lutheran"?

Re-Runs Friday Five

2011-06-03T16:52:00.002-07:00

Today has been a GREAT day! I did my annual volunteering for Special Olympics ND. I will do it again tomorrow. I run their souvenirs for them during their state summer games. I love it but I always end up spending money because they have new stuff from the last time I was there. After volunteering, I took a nap because I had a pounding headache! :( But its gone now! :)So Im going to play the Friday Five!

Songbird writes, "It's that time of year when the only new things on television are music/dance competitions (the 21st century answer to variety shows?). Yes, it's the season of reruns.

This week the clock turned back to last fall and the Glee kids went back to school and still got "slushied," and Michael hired his nephew on The Office, which was not something even he would be likely to repeat.

In honor of this annual Time Warp, please share five things worth a repeat. These could be books, movies, CDs, recipes, vacations, or even TV shows."

1. I always catch something that I didnt catch the first time!

2. Because it is my fave movie/tv show/cd/etc and I could watch it over and over again. It makes me feel good....a good pick-me up!

3. vacations where I get to spend them with people I love and would love to go back and see those friends/family again.

4.For a good laugh, or cry

5. Reminds me of my childhood days! Like watching reruns of "Full House" etc. I can usually quote episodes "word for word"

Another Friday Five

2011-05-27T08:14:00.002-07:00

1. Do you experience any seasonal allergies? Are you allergic to anything else?
Yeah I usually experience some seasonal allergies but Im not allergic to anything that I know of.

2. What kinds of symptoms do you experience during your allergic reactions?Stuffed up,etc

3. How do you manage your allergies? (ie: medication, avoidance, alternative therapies, etc)
Usually some medication

4. What is the strangest allergy you've ever heard of? Someone who was allergic to milk

5. How do you feel about school and social policies that banning peanuts and other allergens? Hmmm....Im not sure about this. I can see both sides. Working at camp, I had a young camper who was allergic to tons of stuff so she always brought her own stuff. She didnt seem to feel left out to me. And I knew she was safe! For safety, I could see why schools are banning certain things!

Love of Words Friday Five

2011-05-20T09:11:00.003-07:00

Description or attribute of yourself---"Smiley"! When I was in college, a couple of friends nicknamed me this. They said it was because I always had a smile on my face. My friend "Chewy" never let a day go by without calling me by my nickname. Unfortunately he committe suicide and is no longer here on this earth. I miss him and miss being called by that nickname but the truth is...it doesnt feel right having someone else call me that!

Activity you enjoy---Poetry! I know not everyone enjoys or understands poetry. But I love it! It has become such a form of prayer for me!

Word that is spelled or pronounced in an interesting way---Hmmmmm thats a hard one. I guess if I had to pick one, it would be kiwi. Ive always thought it was such an interesting fruit and looks interesting.

Passion of yours---Creative! I love being creative whether it be scrapbooking, writing, creating!

Word that brings you hope, peace, or comfort---Ok so I cant pick just one here. For me, it's grace and hope and peace. As a Lutheran, grace means a lot to me. Grace is how I live my life. "It is by grace through faith that you have been saved but it is not your own doing but a gift of God!" Peace! As we watch the events of the world around us, I hear the words of Jesus, "My peace I leave you!" Peace is what I yearn with! Hope allows me to hope for the good and better etc in life!

Word you like to repeat or sing---Hmmmm! Im drawing a blank here!

Jesus Dared.....

2011-05-14T20:38:00.003-07:00

During one of the growth group sessions that I attended at synod assembly today was about being creative. I was so hope-filled after hearing Bishop Mark speak that I found myself moved to write. Bishop Mark talked about how many times we have line drawn in the sand or perhaps not even in sand but concrete but then he reminded us that Jesus dared to stand on both sides of that line. This is what the Holy Spirit inspired me to write!

Jesus Dared
By T

A line has been drawn
drawn in the sand

Yet for all the needy,
Jesus dared;
dared to stand on both sides of the line

For the goodwill of all the people,
Jesus dared;
dared to stand on both sides of the line

For the sake of community,
Jesus dared;
dared to stand on both sides of the line

For justice and peace,
Jesus dared;
dared to stand on both sides of the line

For the love of all,
Jesus dared;
dared to stand on both sides of the line

For hope and transformation,
Jesus dared;
dared to stand on both sides of the line

And in daring to the cross the line,
Jesus continues to remind us
that we are awe-filled people
who cling to the promise of the Resurrection
who might just perhaps
dare to cross that line too!

The Holy Spirit Breathed Life Back Into Me!!!

2011-05-13T22:21:00.004-07:00

I looked around the round and what did I see? The room wasnt just full of grey-haired individuals but rather people of all different age groups. The room was filled with a vibrancy and vitality that I hadnt felt in awhile. Bishop Hanson was so grace-filled in his comments and answers to the questions posed to him tonight at a town hall meeting. I could say more but its late and I need some sleep. I still highly respect this man and as I listened I was enlivened to carry out Christ's mission. Some days life seems crazy, difficult etc especially after the CWA actions of 09 but tonight I am filled once again with hope for a future that will bring so much and bless so many. The Holy Spirit through Bishop Mark's words breathed life back into me again!!!

A More Expansive and Inclusive Church

2011-05-11T08:54:00.004-07:00

WOW!!! What can I say? The PCUSA (Presbyterian Church of the USA) now too has voted to openly allow LGTB individuals to be ordained in their church. They are now added to the growing number of mainline Protestant churches who are now allowing for LGBT individuals to be ordained in their churches! The largest---the Methodist church---is still arguing over this issue! My first response to hearing this news was "Praise be to God!" As an ELCA Lutheran, I have seen how the ELCA has struggled tremendously over this issue. However I believe that in the long-run we will be blessed by this decision. I have many friends who left seminary because they felt turned away and not welcomed. I was saddened by that because most of them have wonderful gifts for ministry and churches were missing out because they couldnt call these individuals. As I read the article posted on the NY Times, what I read was many of the feelings that were expressed and felt after the 2009 decision at the ELCA Churchwide Assembly. (You can find the article here:The PCUSA Now Has Joined the ELCA and Other Protestant Churches on this Big Decision!)And yes, there are still remnents of that decision; people who still disagree and/or will never agree with what happened. And I understand where these invididuals are coming from. In fact, some of them are people I highly respect and value their opinion. However I can't help but wonder what God or Jesus would say in the midst of all of this. As a woman called to pick up her basin and towel, I am called to pick up my basin and towel and serve all God's people; no matter who that person is! For me, that is a essential to my call in this church! I know the PCUSA will go through some of the struggles we have been through over the last two years but in the end, I cant help but think that this will make us stronger. As I watch these events, I can't help but realize that we are being called more and more every day to be a more expansive and inclusive church! What a gift that will be to us and the world! Praise be to God!

Living Lutheran: Trying to Figure Out How To Respond in the Midst of Varying Opinions?

2011-05-09T13:50:00.004-07:00

I frequently like to read www.livinglutheran.org! It is a great website that declares our Lutheran heritage and has many different views on world events etc. Recently my friend Renee was featured in a video on their page about "Resurrection Faith." What an amazing witness to God's grace, love, and mercy!

Today I happened to be checking out this page when I came across an article about Bin Laden's death from a personal blog that was featured on this website. The author talked about how people weren't celebrating Bin Laden's death but rather our defeat over him. (You can find the article here:http://www.livinglutheran.com/blog/2011/05/celebrating-our-enemys-defeat.html)Now that makes sense to me. However I still am having a hard time wrapping my head around all of this. As a woman called to pick up her basin and towel, I know that God has called me to wash the feet of all God's people. Now I'm not saying that Bin Laden's feet should be washed because Im not even convinced that he should have been allowed to live on this earth. But what I do know is that God often reached out to the lost, the least, and the lonely among us. How would he choose to react? What I am also saying is that I don't believe that hate or even joy or celebration is the way for us to react. It seems to me that hate only feeds off of hate and creates more hate! What does that do for us in today's world? Is that what the Resurrected Jesus looks like?

I understand that people need to celebrate their enemie's death and I will let them do that. I don't hold that against them at all! I just can't choose to do that myself! I understand that we all have varying opinions on this subject but for me it is not about the death of this evil one or the victory over this evil one but rather for me its about choosing love over hate, forgiveness over holding a grudge, peace over violence, etc!

Simple Friday Five

2011-05-06T08:29:00.003-07:00

A nice change of a pace after my last three posts!

Here's a Word Association Friday Five, with a bonus twist for those feeling creative. First, for each of these five words -- all of which remind me of my *most* excellent vacation -- share the first word that comes to mind when you read it.

1) Airport-Boston
2) Baseball--Twinkies
3) Art-Picaso
4) Chocolate-Snickers
5) Grill-Summer

Bonus: Tell us a story that comes to mind based on one of the word pairs.

The one story that comes to mind when I think of Airports is from January 2010. I was on a trip to Gettysburg PA when the news of Wartburg Seminarian Ben Larson's death in the Haiti earthquake broke. Ben's wife Renee and I worked at camp together and she introduced me to Ben and Ben's cousin Jon. We spent the last part of the two weeks grieving with Renee, Jon, the Wartburg Seminary community, etc. While at the airport in Boston (closest airport to Gettysburg) waiting for my flight home, I was listening to my IPOD when Aaron Shust's Song "My Savior, My God" came on! As I listened to the words "We dont always understand what God has willed, what God has planned," I found myself thinking about what had just happened. You can find the link to the whole story here: Check it out here!

Sorting Out Love and Hate

2011-05-05T12:25:00.003-07:00

Alright, Im beginning to think I shouldn't read the discussion groups on social media sites or the Web because they totally get my mind spinning and thinking about how I should respond etc. Earlier this week, I found myself trying to wrap my mind and brain around the death of Osama Bin Laden...and must admit that in some ways, Im still trying to sort through it. I read an interesting article earlier today titled "Preaching and Osama." It was a great article that talked about how this Sunday, preachers are going to have to help their parishioners sort out the difference between love and hate. An interesting perspective! You can find the article at this link http://wwwstaff.murdoch.edu.au/~loader/Osama.htm

Then today I open up a discussion group conversation talking about Rob Bell's new book, "Love Wins." I know many people don't like what Bell is writing and are calling him a heretic and a universalist. That is so silly to me! There are parts of the book that really make me wonder if he was a Lutheran in a former life! He does talk a lot about God's grace and mercy. I am reminded of a question he poses in the book, "Which is stronger and more powerful: the hardness of the human heart or God's unrelenting, infinite, expansive love (Love Wins, Rob Bell)?" Bell suggests that God's love wins! And I hope he is right! As a woman called to pick up her basin and towel, I believe that I am called to pick up my basin and towel and wash the feet of ALL God's people. Who am I to judge? I am just as sinful as the next person!
I know that this concept is difficult for some of us to grasp but I'm convinced that Jesus gave us the example. Who did Jesus reach out to? The least, the lost, the lowly, the marginalized of society! So how can we show that love to others? How can we reach beyond ourselves and beyond our church walls?

It seems to me that the ELCA has done a wonderful job even in the midst of hard times to continue to spread that love. Lutheran Disaster Response (LDR---a partnership of the ELCA and Missouri Synod) is often the first response team on the site during a natural disaster. The ELCA has over 250 missionaries serving in over 50countries. And the list could go on and on. But the reality is that the ELCA has struggled over the last several years because people are upset over the decisions made at the ELCA Churchwide assembly. How can we help each other to respect each others opinions and continue to help spread God's love not just in our own churches but outside our church walls to the world? What do we teach our children and our homes if we only keep our resources for ourselves?

In the end, I am convinced that if we share God's love to all and move beyond these decisions, we will be truly blessed! Who am I to judge? And who am I to say who can and cannot lead? Jesus himself used some interesting and unexpected characters to spread his message of the gospel! I am reminded of a question my colleague asked the other day, "Where have you seen the Risen and Living Jesus?" (And be forwarned that if I like your responses, I may share them with my colleague)

Oh yeah and yesterday was my 400th post!!!!

Bonhoeffer, MLK Jr. and Me

2011-05-03T09:22:00.006-07:00

I'm still really having a hard time wrapping my head around the news of Osama Bin Laden's death. I understand that people need to rejoice; rejoice for those that lost their lives on Sept 11, 2001. I understand that many of us are feeling relief for this evil man who caused the death of these people and cannot hurt them anymore. Yet Im still having a hard time wrapping my head around how I should feel. This morning I sat with some ladies in my Tues morning devos. I spoke my mind and told them how I was feeling; that I just couldn't bring myself to celebrate over the death/murder of someone even this evil one. I was immediately met by responses that told me that they rejoiced. I don't shame them or blame them for that at all. I myself just cannot bring myself to celebrate the death of ANYONE! How should I feel? How should I react? I am reminded of Lutheran Theologian Dietrich Boenhoeffer who in the last part of his life wondered if God was calling him to murder and instead ended up in a concentration camp. Recently a quote has been all over fb and it seems to capture how I am feeling in these days. I've recently been informed that only the last half of the quote was truly MLK Jr. and that the first half came from somewhere else. I hesistate to post a quote that I am unsure of the source but it is truly capturing how I feel. ""I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that." I am clinging to these words as I try to discern and wrap my head around the events of the last several days and how I should feel, etc, etc!

When Enemies Fall.....

2011-05-01T20:58:00.002-07:00

Tonight I was sitting watching one of my favorite Sunday night shows "Brothers and Sisters" when a national news report came in to interrupt the show. The news report was to announce that Osama Bin Laden had been killed. I understand that many people have lost their lives and that Bin Laden probably didnt deserve to live on this earth. However I cannot help but think about what Jesus said in our gospel reading from John this morning. "My peace I give to you." Tonight my fb feed is full of statuses about this news. But I cannot bring myself to celebrate death of any kind! Im uncomfortable celebrating anyone's death; no matter who that person is! In the midst of moments like this, I find myself continuing to pray even more for shalom for God's people! In the book of Proverbs, we hear these words, "Do not rejoice when your enemy falls, and do not let your heart be glad when he stumbles (Proverbs 24:17)." I know this is not easy for us to do but again I am reminded of those words we heard from Jesus, "My peace I give to you." I could go on and on with other verses that will make us reflect on what happened tonight. Look up Romans 12:16-21 or Matthew 5:43-44!But in the midst of this historical event, I cant help but think about what Jesus says to us when our enemies fall. What example did Jesus set for us?

A friend had this quote on her fb status tonight and it seems so fitting. It was the words I was searching for as I listened and heard the news of Bin Laden's death. "There are no good guys when it comes to hate. Our hope is not in death, our hope is in reconciliation through the life that is the light of the world!"

"Peace be with you, my friends!"

5 Years Ago....

2011-04-22T22:28:00.002-07:00

I can't believe I am still up! The crazy thing though is that today marks an anniversary for me! 5 years ago today I was consecrated as a Diaconal Minister in the ELCA. It is hard to believe it has been 5 years already! The funny thing is that at this time 5 years ago I was waiting for two very dear friends to arrive from Iowa for the day. I'm so glad they came and was blessed to have them as a part of my service! I will never forget standing out in the street at about 1 am as they handed me a special gift. It hangs on the office in my wall and reads "Diakonia." The letters are filled with pictures of our time together at seminary. I love it because, not only, does it remind me of my call to "Diakonia," but it causes people to ask what it means etc! Such a special day in my life! I am so thankful and blessed for the Diaconal Community of the ELCA! And those that understand, see, and know that God truly has called me into this ministry!

It's Your Birthday Friday Five!

2011-04-15T09:00:00.004-07:00

1. What are your feelings about celebrating birthdays, especially your own? Im definetely a birthday person! I love celebrating it especially with family and friends! Life is a gift so I feel it is important to celebrate every year of my life.

2. Do you have any family traditions about birthdays? Nope not really!

3. Is it easy to remember friends' and family members' birthdays? If so, how do you do it? YES! I love sending bday cards, writing on their FB walls, etc. I am a person who writes just about everyones name on the calendar to remember. It also helps that on FB it tells you whose bday is that day!

4. What was one of your favorite birthdays? (or your unhappiest?)Ive had so many great birthdays! My mom and sister surprised me and gave me a surprise party for my sweet 16th. On my 30th, my colleague Pr. M put it in the bulletin and sent out an email. (I was gone the weekend it was in the bulletin). Members of the congregation sent flowers, emails, called me etc on that day. My all time fave bday was when I started seminary. It was crazy! It was the first day of classes and I hardly knew anyone! We had watched a clip from the movie Chocolat during class so we decided to watch the rest that night in our lounge. My friend L and I went to the store and I bought my own bday cake! That night we gathered and watched the movie! After the movie, we had so much fun! We played the card game Spoons and there was spoons flying everywhere! Then we decided to eat the cake with our hands like little piggies! We laughed so hard that night!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5. Post anything else you want to share about birthdays, including favorite foods, songs, and/or pictures. MY FAVE CAKE!!!!!

God's Grace

2011-04-13T19:57:00.003-07:00

"God's grace is sufficient for us all"

These words are ringing in my ears as I reflect on the importance of this holy meal. Communion has always been important to me. It reminds me again and again of who this Jesus is and that God's grace is sufficient for us all. It is not the bread or wine itself that makes this meal special. Tonight during a first communion milestone class a parent wanted to know how their child is special because he know can take communion and how is he different because he takes communion and his siblings dont yet.Im really struggling with this because it isnt the child/participant that becomes special. Just because we take communion doesn't mean we get magical powers like Harry Potter. In fact in Luther's Small Catechism, it says, "Eating and drinking do not do it, but rather the words that are recorded "given for you" and "shed for you for the forgiveness of sins." So my dear readers and friends, I am asking for your responses to these questions; why is communion important to you? What makes communion special to YOU?

"God's grace is suffient for us all"

Another Friday Five

2011-04-08T18:06:00.002-07:00

Tell us five ways in which you are anticipating, or your life is moving towards light, joy, hope--new things: new ideas, new hobbies, new people...and so on.

1. I've been meeting new people lately because I recently about a month or so ago joined a writing group at our local library. It has been a fantastic way to keep my writing up but also been a neat way to meet new people.

2. New life. I love babies and can't wait until I have my own family but lately a lot of my friends have had another baby or announced they are expecting again. I am so excited for them. My good friends DJ and A just had their third child; another boy. They started the adoption process and got pregnant about the same time so their two older children are like 4 months apart!

3. Fitness and Zumba! I recently just started Zumba and LOVE IT! I may look like a fool but I love it and get such a good workout. Helps me feel good when Im feeling sluggish, down, etc.

4. Music, a good movie or a good book also brighten my day. I love listening to music. I love reading a good book etc. Always makes me escape.

5. This might seem silly but as the rising waters of the Red River continue to rise, I am reminded of new life. It always amazes me how Fargo-Moorhead pulls together as a community to help protect each other.

Feet!

2011-04-07T18:13:00.002-07:00

I have to laugh because I have been encountering feet a lot lately. As I sit here typing, I am watching "Bones" and they are trying to solve a case using feet! Then earlier today, I listened to ELCA Presiding Bishop Mark Hanson's sermon from this past weekend at Wartburg Theological Seminary. He says, "It is all about voices and feet." He also quoted the Biblical text where it talks about "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring Good News." I love this text because it reminds me of what I am called to do and be as a Diaconal Minister in the ELCA. The Diaconal text is the text where Jesus washes his disciple's feet. God calls me to wash the feet of all God's people. However I love how Mark Hanson framed his sermon because I truly believe we all are called to share the gospel with the world. We all are called to bring Good News to each other. I cant help but be reminded of my own father, grandfather and uncle who farm and sometimes their feet are covered in mud, dirt, etc yet their feet are just as beautiful as anyone elses. During his sermon, Bishop Mark had the worshippers look at the feet of those around them and to compliment them on their feet. What if we were more intentional about helping each other see how we ALL are called to use our feet (and voices) to share God's love with the world.

"How beautiful are the feet of those who bring Good News!"

Treasuring Time

2011-04-02T13:07:00.002-07:00

Sometimes it seems like we all are so busy with the busyness of our lives, that we forget how important it is to spend time with our loved ones; to just be still and know that God is there. Yesterday after a morning meeting, I left Fargo around noon and headed for my mom's place. Since I left the meeting early, I was put on speaker and put my cell on speaker and was able to be a part of the conversation. I arrived at my mom's place around 4:30 pm. I picked her up but not before I opened my Christmas gift. That was the first thing she handed me! It wasnt anything fancy; a wicker basket with shampoo, body wash, conditioner, etc. I know its the thought that counts because she cant afford much but I love the basket. I think its going to become my fruit basket! We went and had supper at a local restaurant. Mom had a shrimp basket and I had their special; shrimp stir-fry with two egg rolls (pork or veggie). I chose veggie and they were the two largest egg rolls ever! Then Mom and I went back to her nursing home, we just hung out in their den and watched tv after she opened her Christmas gifts. (We were supposed to go over Christmas break to see her but the weather got yucky; really really yucky!) We also even went on the computer and because I had taken video of my apartment, I was able to show that to mom and she was able to see my apartment! (Thanks for the request S!) Mom went to bed around nine pm so I read on my Kindle and then went to bed around 10:30 pm or so. I slept in an extra room at the nursing home. Around 7:30 am, my mom came into the room to see if I was up but I was still laying there and not really awake. I still heard her come in. After her breakfast, she came in and checked again. I was awake so I got up and got dressed. Then about 9am, mom wanted to go downtown so we went to the grocery store and the drug store. Mom had to buy her ever favorite Spice Drops! We got back around 10 am and Mom told me that she would let me go. I think she was worried about the weather coming in later today. You know we didnt do anything fancy but it was good to spend time with her. I treasure that time and I know that she treasures that time as well!

Spiritual Practices Friday Five

2011-03-25T11:56:00.003-07:00

For today's Friday Five, please share with us five spiritual practices or disciplines from your experience. They can be ones that you have tried and kept up with, tried and NOT kept up with, ones that you flirt with at various times, or even practices that you have tried and found are definitely NOT your cup of tea. Let us know what's worked for you...and not

1. Praying through my friend's list on Facebook during Lent--A friend started this spiritual practice last Lent and I decided to do it with her. Because I enjoyed it so much I decided to do it again this year. It is so fun and really helps me stay disciplined because I don't want to let them down!

2. Journaling--Since I am a writer, this is important to me and allows me to stay focused on what I want to pray about etc. It helps me to put my thoughts on a page and allows me to have a conversation with God through my words...if that makes any sense to you all.

3. Silence--Silence is a good thing during worship. Some of my favorite moments in the Diaconal Ministry community have been when we have been worshipping and allowing for silence. Powerful stuff!

4. Lectio Divina- Just not my cup of tea! Not sure exactly why but it's something that I don't seem to get a lot out of!

5. Self-Care---Something that was embedded in me at seminary and something I definetey need to do....time for myself whether that be getting my hair down, spending it with friends or family, being silly, etc. I also have found a new love...Zumba! So much fun and such a great workout!

A Hodge-Podge of Thoughts

2011-03-19T18:17:00.003-07:00

Ive been thinking a lot about something a friend said to me the other day, She said, "I dont think God would put it on your heart if it wasnt meant to be." It just has me thinking; is that true? What about those people who are older, still single, wanted a family, and didnt get it? Did they yearn for it as deeply as I do? Just makes me wonder!

Enough about that though, this weekend has been absolutely fantastic! Last night I met up with an old college friend who I havent seen in like 10 years. So good to catch up. I also contacted another old friend who I worked at camp with and who is now living in the states again. Her and her husband are expecting their first child and where in town for a baby shower. We were hoping to get together for coffee but the weekend got busy for both of us so we are going to meet up next time she is in town. It would have been fantastic to see her but I know how crazy life can get and it gives me something to look forward too. Then I had a big grand opening show (Im taking on a new little adventure to earn some extra cash) this afternoon and was afraid no one would show. 4 pm came and it was just me and the host so I was bummed but a half hour later an old hs friend showed up and we had so much fun; cooking and catching up. They left about 7pm and my daddy who I havent spoken too in awhile called to chat earlier so I called him back and we had a nice visit. Now Im just settling in to watch the "Secret Life of Bees" on tv.

Other than that, life is grand! As a friend said the other day, "Im too blessed to be stressed." I need to remind myself of that because I think Im just as guilty as the next person as forgetting to look at how many wonderful blessings in my life! So if you havent heard it from me lately, thank you for being a wonderful blessing in my life!

So Ready for Spring Friday Five

2011-03-18T10:25:00.002-07:00

I dont know about you but I am so ready for Spring!

Name 5 things that are springing forth, possibly including :

what you hope for--I hope for God to bring that special man into my life so I can finally have the things I yearn for so deeply; family, etc

what you dread--the impending flood of the Red River. Throwing sandbags, etc each year gets to be so tiring. Ill do it but I think we are all tired of it and dread its coming!

what you observe---The snow is melting, sandbag stations are busy preparing sandbags to protect homes from the rising Red River. The sun is shining and we are finally hitting double digits above 0! Yay!

what is concrete---God's grace and love for God's people

what is intangible---where Ill be a year from now, five years, ten years etc

Cars Friday Five

2011-03-11T13:45:00.002-07:00

1. The earliest recollection you have of a family car
I remember the van we used to own when I was little. It looked like an ambulance; almost the exact same color but with no lights. We took many family vacations in that van. I also remember my mom's orange chevy nova! You could hear that car coming a block away!

2. The first car you drove when you could (legally) get behind the wheel yourself.
The first car I legally drove was a 1991 White Ford Colt.

3. A memorable road trip---
The trip my friend Heather and I took about 10 years ago or so. We decided to take a roadtrip. It was a blast! We left from Dubuque, IA and headed for our trip. We first stopped in Bella Vista Arkansas and spent some time with my aunt and uncle and cousins. My aunt even took us into Bentonville where we explored the Sam Walton museum and a DaySpring outlet store. Then after a few days there, we headed for Ft. Smith where my friend Heather had done her internship. We spent a day there and then headed off to Chandler Oklahoma to see my friend's aunt, uncle and cousins. We even got to drive and explore Route 66. Her aunt and uncles took us into Oklahoma City where we visited the Oklahoma City bombing site. Then after a few days, we headed to Kansas where we spent some time with Heather's college friend and then we headed back to IA. It was so much fun!!!! Heather gave me a hard time because I hadn't traveled much so I always made her stop by the "Welcome to this state."

4. The car you drive now. Love it? Hate it? Love it! My uncle found it for me. It is a 2001 Olds Alero.It was owned by an elderly lady who hardly drove it and took fantastic care of it. It just hit hte 60,000 mark the other day!

5. An interesting story that involves you and a vehicle. (No, I do not have a dirty mind!)When I worked at SuperAwesomeBibleCamp, sometimes we were sent off to do day camps. We got some interesting vehicles. One time my friend Ben, another counselor and myself were sent off to do daycamp. We hadWe a great week but where given a rather older station wagon. On the way home, we got a flat tire. We pulled off to the side of the road. The spare tire was under all the luggage so we had to toss all the luggage onto the side of the road so we could find the tire. Once we got to the tire, we found out it was a lock-system so we had to search for the key. But needless to say, the key wasnt were the car manual told us we would find it. We got pretty frustrated but eventually found the key. A car stopped to see if we needed help but we told them we were fine. Eventually Ben got the tire changed, luggage back in the car, and we headed to camp. It was a crazy trip. Ben blamed my stuffed monkey on the flat tire because everytime something went wrong, we blamed the monkey because he said the monkey was cursed. There is even another great store about a vehicle and day camp...Ill have to tell you all about it sometime!

Ash Wednesday

2011-03-09T14:01:00.004-07:00

So I'm in a somber mood today....and I know why...it's Ash Wednesday. I have always appreciated Ash Wednesday because it truly reminds me of what the journey to the cross is all about. I never felt it more than I did last January after the devestating earthquake in Haiti. In fact, I remember tears trickling down my face as I imposed the ashes on congregation members foreheads. As I looked into each of their faces, I was reminded of each of our mortality. The truth is that death will come but that God promises that he will never leave us or forsake us. God sent God's Son to die for each of our sins. What a powerful gift that is! Today I find myself thinking about all those that have already died in my life; both my maternal grandparents, my best friend from high school, my friend Renee's husband Ben, my cousin's precious children and even recently a dear pastor of our synod who died unexpectedly. As I reflect on each of their deaths and once again am faced with mortality, I cant help but think of the gift that Lent is to us. WE NEED LENT! I think Dr. David Lose captures it best in his article. You can find it here The Trouble (and Blessing) of Lent. Lent isn't meant to be all sunshine and roses. But rather is meant to remind us of the journey to the cross and what Christ died for us when he died on the cross! So may you remember these words,"Dust to Dust, Ashes to Ashes, From dust you came, From Dust you shall return"

Getting Ready for Lent Friday Five

2011-03-04T10:14:00.002-07:00

What are some things you appreciate about the season of Lent? Perhaps you would share 5 of them with us. And for your bonus question feel free to share one thing you could do without.

1. Lent is an awesome season. I love that some of the most special days are during Lent especially Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, Easter Sunday, etc. Maundy Thursday holds a special place in my heart since it is the text of Jesus' washing his disciple's feet which is what Diaconal Ministry is all about!

2. The Bible Studies we offer during Lent. I like that it helps me to take the time to dwell in God's Word which Im not always the greatest at.

3. I appreciate that we dont have Confirmation during Lent. It's nice to have a break but more importantly, it reminds our Confirmation families to take the time to worship together. I love seeing them at our Lenten worship services.

4. Ash Wednesday "ashes to ashes, dust to dust." It may be a dark day but also reminds me of what Jesus did for me. It also helps me reflect on both life and death. Last February I found tears falling from my face as I put ashes on the foreheads of my parishioners. In that moment, I couldnt help but think of how Ben Larson had been killed in the Haiti earthquake while on J-term there with his wife and cousin. A powerful moment!

5. Lenten suppers that our youth put together

I really cant think of anything I dont appreciate about Lent. Maybe if I had to pick, it would be when Easter and Lent are later than they usually are.

Camp Celebration and Special Olympics

2011-03-02T22:43:00.004-07:00

My friend just posted on his blog about how March is National Intellectual and Developmental Disabilities month which inspired me to write this post! M's blog is so well written and reminds us that we ALL are the body of Christ. If you would like to read it, you can find it at www.pastormarksday.blogspot.com

This past summer the camp that I worked at for many summers did a camp for individuals who live with a developmental, emotional and/or intellectual disability. It was the first time SuperAwesomeBibleCamp held this special camp. They had a light number of people who registered for the camp so they went to the local nursing home and invited some of their residents to come out to camp for the week. One of them was my mom (who is manic/bipolar). The camp called and asked me to come join them for "Camp Celebration." I talked to my colleagues at the church and they told me to go since I dont get to hang out with my mom much so I packed up my car and headed for camp!

It was such a joy to be at SuperAwesomeBibleCamp during this week of "Camp Celebration." It was so much fun to get to know all of the campers for this wonderful camp. Wendy was this amazing woman who doesnt talk. She loved making pictures and communicating with us in her own way.What a gift it was to be with them. It was so much fun to share this place that means so much to me with these campers and most especially my mom. As I spent time with them, I saw how they each contributed to the body of Christ. They each brought unique gifts! What a joy!

Not only, do I remember those I met at "Camp Celebration," but I also remember the many wonderful individuals I met while working with Special Olympics. Special Olympics is an amazing organization and through them, I met some of the most amazing people. Special Olympics and its athletes will always hold a special place in my heart as well. It has formed me and helped shape me into the woman of faith that I am today!

So as we celebrate National Intellectual and Developmental Disabilities Awareness month, may we remember the gifts they each bring and that each one of us is a unique part of the body of Christ. And what a precious gift that is!

I try to be pretty anonymous on this blog but just had to post a pic of my mom and I during "Camp Celebration." She was having so much fun!

Laughter

2011-03-01T19:10:00.002-07:00

Laughter truly is the best medicine. Today I was working out at my local Curves and they were doing Zumba with the Curves circuit. I was working out and got to watch. They looked like they were having so much fun. However I think I might not be coordinated enough so I was chicken to try it. I might try it next week since I just found out that a friend does it. She encouraged me to try it so I might just have too. It was so fun to watch and I found myself laughing and smiling. Then tonight I went to a meeting where we got to talking after the meeeting and then laughing! It was so good to laugh together. I miss laughing with my friends at seminary. I remember the boys chasing us down and through the cornmaze. Crazy stuff. Laughter truly is the best medicine!

Talk About It

2011-02-28T15:17:00.005-07:00

Conversations are happening around us all the time but do you realize how important each of these conversations is to your life? At the church I work at, we use caring conversation all the time; in our Confirmation program, in our Bible studies. But more than any of this, conversation is an important part of our homes as well. Now think about it! How many times a day do you find yourself engaging in a conversation?
Maybe you are a parent and many of your conversations involve simply asking your children how school was or how their day was? Most of the time Ill bet you get a pretty morous answer; "ok", "alright" or another one word answer. These conversations might be simple but it seems to me that eventually you will have to converse about the hard stuff; the stuff that neither one of you probably wants to talk about.

Caring conversation is essential to all our relationships! If we can't talk to each other, then how will we able to talk about the tough stuff? How will we be able to learn to trust each other if we don't talk to each other? Our confirmation program and our faith milestones programs bring in every home of every child in that specific class. What has been absolutely amazing to watch is how important that time and those conversations are to the homes of this community of faith. WOW! I've seen divorced parents sitting at a table with their child TALKING to each other; not yelling, not arguing but simply talking to each other. What a wonderful example of why these conversations are so important!

Too much of our lives these days are busy running from here to there to here again and back to there that we simply dont take the time to sit down together, we simply run through the drive-thru, grab supper, and head to our next activity. But the truth is we will get so much more out of our relationships and life if we take the time to talk. As I grow older, I have really come to appreciate and realize why I need "caring conversation" in my life. I think of my relationship with my own mom who lives in a nursing home because of her illness (she is manic/bipolar;had a nervous breakdown shortly after my sister was born almost 30 years ago) we dont have the most in-depth conversations. She isnt the mom I once knew. However I know that when I call her, it means the world to her. Our conversations may be short and brief but they have also allowed us to have the tough conversations. Recently a family member lost their child and I had to tell my mom. If it hadnt been for our "caring conversations," I know this would have been much more difficult.

So tonight give it a try; turn off the tv, sit down for supper and simply talk to each other. "Caring Conversation" can be as simple as sharing about your day today. Enjoy some "caring conversation", make it a ritual, and then let me know what you think.

My Mom Cracks Me Up Sometimes! :)

2011-02-26T19:59:00.005-07:00

This girl is so ready for spring!!!!!! I usually am one who likes something about all the seasons but I am so ready for spring to be here! Even though the sky is blue somedays, it is still soooooo cold! I am ready for it be above 0! I love that my mom is happy at her nursing home. She has many friends there and I would never move her but sometimes it seems so far away. I always try to visit her over Christmas but because of the horrible weather, I didnt get there this Christmas. Mom still has my Christmas presents and my sisters. She calls me almost every Friday to see if Im going to come visit her. I want to so badly but the weather just hasnt been decent enough for a five hour drive especially for someone who drives alone. I love the drive but not when it is snowy and/or icy. One of these days I will get there....maybe in two weeks! :) But for now, Mom is just making Christmas last longer. But another note, my mom cracks me up sometimes. A couple of weeks ago she called to see if I was coming and I told her, "No." We were having a great conversation and I was explaining how it would be so much easier if I didnt have to drive that far alone. Out of nowhere, my mom replies, "You have a boyfriend. I know you have a boyfriend." I was trying so hard not to laugh. I simply replied, "No Mom, I dont have a boyfriend. I think you would be the first to know." It made me smile....and chuckle! I know she wants grandchildren, wants me to find someone special and to get married but she will just have to wait along with me! :)

"Optimistic, Not Pessimistic"

2011-02-24T18:47:00.004-07:00

So why did it I click on this link?:
Why Am I Still Single?

Some interesting thoughts! I'm not sure if I have thought any of these thoughts but they definetely make me wonder about the question; WHY AM I STILL SINGLE? I know that I definetely yearn for a family, a husband, etc etc etc and I wonder if God would make me yearn for these things if they were never going to happen for me. I find myself saying NO WAY! God wants these things for you. So just wondering if maybe sometimes I inadvertently do think pessimisticly and maybe should start thinking more optimistic.

I remember a conversation my colleagues and I had at work way back in September. They made me reframe what I pray for in my life etc. I also specifically remember one of them saying he hoped and prayed that someone would be put in my life who would bless me and who I would bless in return; "blessed to be a blessing." I did join a local writing group to help with this and believe I have been blessed by attending it etc. However I still havent found someone I have that "connection" with and who we bless in return.

I vow that I am going to try and think more optimistically as I wait to find my Mr. Right and no longer be single.....

Words Friday Five

2011-02-18T11:08:00.002-07:00

For this Friday Five, please list five words that identify your passions, spirituality, and/or life. Describe as much or as little as you wish.

1.Service!--My call to Diaconal Ministry is founded on service. I am called to pick up my basin and towel to serve all God's people. I love helping others. In addition, hospitalily plays an important part of this as well. I love having others over etc.

2. Words (and Writing)--I love writing! I love putting words on a page; writing a story, poems, etc. It also is a huge form of prayer for me. Someday I would love to have a book published.

3. Relationships--My friends and family mean the world to me! I love spending time with them. It is important for me to say connected to all these people. I am blessed to have you in my life! It is important to me to be a good daughter, sister, friend, niece, etc.

4. "Grace through faith"--My Lutheran identity is a huge part of who I am and is so important to me. It isnt about doing the right thing or working to earn God's love, its about grace knowing that God's love is a free-unmerited gift given to me freely by God. I am reminded of the words of my colleague...he classifies it often as the "pure insanity of grace." I love that; and thats why grace is so important to me!

5. Holy Spirit--The Holy Spirit always is there when we least expect it. There have been times in my life when I didnt know what was going to happen, etc but yet the Holy Spirit has been there in the midst of it all.

Valentine's Day AKA Single Awareness Day

2011-02-14T14:04:00.003-07:00

Happy Valentine's Day.....or for some, Happy Single Awareness Day!

I'll admit this hasn't always been my favorite holiday. As a single woman, I find myself reflecting on what I dont have rather than what I do have. But the reality is that I think we need to spend time reflecting on the things we do have. There are so many in my life; family, friends, etc who show me love and shower me with that love each and every day. However that still isnt an easy thing to do when you yearn for something....yearn for a family, husband, children etc. Yet the reality is that I am blessed by wonderful friendships and family. Thank you! (And it will happen for me someday...I will find those things that I yearn for....Ill just have to be patient!)

Today I was reminded of this love when a dear friend from the church I work at surprised me with chocolate and flowers. She was like, "I couldnt think of anyone who deserved chocolate and flowers more than you do." She totally made my day! Thanks for putting a smile on my face dear friend!

Valentine's Friday Five

2011-02-11T11:18:00.003-07:00

For today's Friday Five, tell us about five people you love, people who will remain in your "heart" forever.

1. My Momma! She is one of the most amazing people in my life. I love her so much. Even though she lives in a nursing home and is 5 hours away from me, I think of her every day. I hate when I disappoint her but know she loves me unconditionally! Love you momma!

2. My Dad! My dad and my mom have always been there for my sister and I even after they got divorced. My dad is such a hard-worker and has instilled that in his girls. Someday I hope to find my Mr. Right and I have a feeling he will have many of the qualities I love and admire in my daddy.

3. My sister. I am so glad that I didnt grow up an only child (nothing against those of you who did) Andrea and I are very close. I love that since she is the younger sister, she talks to me about stuff....confides in me the older sister! I love our chats! I dont know what I would do without her. I love her with all my heart. I love you sis!

4. My Grandparents. Both sets are such an amazing example of love. Both of my mom's parents have left us and are in heaven. They were married for nearly 63 nears. WOW! I miss both of them each and every day. My dad's parents are both still on this earth. They are such hard-workers which is where I believe my dad got his work ethic and instilled that in us our girls. All my grandparents have always been there for us. Love you!

5. Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, etc. My family means the world to me! I know we dont get to see each other as much as I would like but I love you all with my whole heart. Miss you and love you all!

There are many others I am so blessed to have in my life but since it asked for five, I kept it as five. I am blessed by wonderful friends, wonderful colleagues-in-ministry, teachers, etc. And of course God...God's love will always be held in the depths of my heart. Thank you for blessing my life. You all know who you are!

Ministry Friday Five

2011-02-04T08:45:00.002-07:00

What are 5 perks/gifts of ministry for you?

1. For me, one of them is spending time and getting to know all the generations of the church. I love spending time with my youth. I love leading devotions with my Tuesday morning devotion group with ladies who are all over the age of 60.

2. Getting to travel; taking youth on mission trips, going to continuing education events, etc.

3. As the first Diaconal Minister, I would say a perk for me is getting to educate others about the roster. I probably never would have put this in this category but the more I think about it, it makes sense. I love sharing my story about being called to the DM roster of the ELCA!

4. A Somewhat flexible schedule. I spend a lot of time at the church but when I put in long hours, its nice to know that I dont have to rush back to the church the next morning right away.

5. Im a writer so preaching is a joy. However I definetely am not called to be a pastor and dont want to do it every week so a perk for me is preaching once a month. Just perfect for me!

Where Have You Seen God at Work in Yourself and through Others?

2011-01-31T13:51:00.005-07:00

Where have you seen God at work in yourself and through others? I just heard this question posed as I was listening to Sermon BrainWave on WorkingPreacher.org so I thought I would give their suggestion a whirl. So I need your help my friends, I am working on a sermonette (only have a half hour so the sermon will be shorter) for our synod council meeting on Saturday. Please do me a favor and comment on my blog (Besides, I love receiving comments on my blog) and share examples of how you have seen God at work in yourself and through others? Where have you seen yourself and/or others being salt and light in the world?

A Bold Woman?

2011-01-29T15:22:00.002-07:00

So earlier today, a friend asked if she could use a pic of me in a collage of bold woman, I told her yes. The crazy thing is I guess I've never considered myself as a bold woman. According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary, bold is defined as "fearless before danger"; "showing or requiring a fearless daring spirit", or "standing out prominently." When I look at these definitions, I still don't see myself as a bold woman. I think of my cousin who is an amazing mother to Jack and Maia who both are now in heaven. She still amazes me to this day. I think of those who struggle with cancer yet still find the blessings in the midst of it. I think of my own mother, sister and others who daily struggle with mental illness. They all exude people who are bold in my eyes. Its pretty amazing that this friend thinks Im a bold woman! I just never would have put myself in that category. I wonder what makes ME a BOLD WOMAN?!?!

Favorite Bible Verses Friday Five

2011-01-28T09:51:00.002-07:00

For today's Friday Five, list your five favorite passages/verses from the Bible and tell us something about why you love them.

1. One of my fave verses has always been Micah 6:8. "He has told you, O mortal, what is good and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness and to walk humbly with your God." I love it for a variety of reasons. It was our seminary senior class verse. I love it because it reminds me of how I should treat others.

2. Psalm 30:11-12 "You have turned my mourning into dancing;you have taken off my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, so that my soul may praise you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to you forever." I love the entire Psalm but these two verses pack such a punch and remind me that there is hope; hope in the one who promises to never leave us or forsake us. Last January when the Haiti happened in Haiti, my small group at the Diaconal Ministry Formation Event and I listened to Ben Larson's musical version of this verse as we grieved his death.

3. 2 Corinthians 4:7 "But we have this treasure in clay jars, so that it may be made clear that this extraordinary power belongs to God and does not come from us." My fave Christian artist is Jars of Clay. I love that this famous band used this verse to create their name. It reminds all of us that no matter what God has the power not us.

4. Psalm 139:14 "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; that I know very well." Working with youth, Special Olympics, etc, I see how youth and others are affected by how they dress, what others think of them, etc. I like this verse because it proves that we are "fearfully and wonderfully made" and that God created us and loves us for who we are. Such a beautiful reminder for everyone of us. Through the waters of Baptism, God calls and claims us as God's precious children!

5.Romans 14:8 “If we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord; so then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lords.” This has become one of my new favorite verses. What a great reminder for us each and every day!

Books, Books, and More Books Friday Five

2011-01-21T08:59:00.002-07:00

Since I just got a Kindle for Christmas,these were so fun to answer. I love reading but its been so much fun again with my Kindle.

1. What books have you recently read? Tell us your opinion of them. I read Charles Dicken's Great Expecations and Jodi Picoult's House Rules. I love a Christmas Carol but I must admit Great Expectations was hard to get through at times and probably wasnt my favorite. However I still enjoyed it. House Rules was awesome. I enjoy anything by Jodi Picoult and this was no exception! I'm currently readng Say You're One of Them. Im not far enough into the book to really give an opinion yet!

2. What books are awaiting your available time to be read? I have so many and even have a wish list started on my Kindle. Jodi Picoult's The Pact and Second Glances, The Girl with the Dragon Tatoo, The Time Traveler's Wife, The Pillars of the Earth, Nathan Coulter and Remembering by Wendell Berry.

3. Have any books been recently recommended? Yeppers! Both Say You're One of Them and Pillars of the Earth were recommended by a good friend. One of my church youth recommended Jodi Picoult's The Pact to me.

4. What genre of books are your favorite, along with some titles and/or authors you like best? I love everything! But some of my faves include Jodi Picoult, Wendell Berry, Danielle Steele, and many many more.

5. What have you read lately that you have a strong urge to recommend? (or to condemn?) "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldridge is awesome. A great book for any woman. Its a Christian book just for woman and how woman should look at themselves. Its been fun to read. I havent agreed with everything in the book but has really made me look at myself as a woman in a new light. "House Rules" is worth the read too especially if you like Jodi Picoult.

We Are The Lords

2011-01-20T19:42:00.007-07:00

Romans 14:8; “If we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord; so then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lords.”

I've been thinking about this verse a lot lately. I think of Christina Taylor Green the young girl who was killed in Arizona. I think of Ben Larson and the people who died last January in the Haiti earthquake. I think of my cousins two little babies. I also think of those that are battling cancer and other illness. It seems every day I hear another story that reminds me how blessed I am to have good health, good insurance. But yet these individuals remind me of why this verse is so AMAZING! You see,things happen in life that we can't explain or understand. We still ask that age-old question, "Why do bad things happen to good people?" But the beauty is that God loves us so much and in this verse, God reminds us that we are God's beloved children and that we will always be God's children. God will never leave us or forsake us (despite how hard we may try to escape him when we cant understand why this or that is happening to us or our loved ones!)

My newsletter article focuses on this Bible verse. Check it out at the link below!Romans 14:8 Post This verse is an amazing reminder for us all!

Sleep in Peace, Sweet Baby Boy

2011-01-15T14:26:00.002-07:00

I love spending time with my Wartburg friends and other colleagues in ministry. What a gift that time together is. In another note, if you could say a prayer for my cousin, her husband, and their baby Jack. Jack was born in April and was at home for four months before he had any signs of anything being wrong. His little lungs and heart have just been struggling. Jack went up to heaven sometime this morning. He is now with his sister Maia. My cousin lost her first baby too. I feel so bad for them and hope they can find some answers as to why both of her children went to heaven before they were a year old. Please pray for healing for all of them! Thank you!