I attended an informational meeting on foster care and adoption tonight. It's one of the scariest things I've done in a long time. I walked into a room full of strangers. I stand up front every week during worship and have no problem. But tonight I felt like I was a little fish in a big pond. I sat down at a table by myself. Shortly thereafter, a lady asked if she could join me. Next thing I knew there were two couples sitting to my right and my left.
A lot of information was given to us and my mind is full. After awhile, a foster parent panel got up to speak and answer our questions. One of them was a single dad. I asked him to speak about being a single parent. And immediately, as I began asking the question, the tears began streaming down my face. (Anyone who knows me well knows that's no surprise). I so appreciated his honesty.
Afterwards, the single dad was on his phone when I walked by. I mouthed the words "Thank You!" He mouthed back "It's totally worth it!" Of all the words that I heard tonight, those are the words that are sticking with me. Those are the words that are replaying in my head and my heart.
Foster and/or adoption have been something that I've been praying about for awhile now. And lately, I've felt more and more like God has been tapping me on my shoulder saying "Go for it! I'll be with you every step of the way!" And as I hear those words, I feel like God is calling me to be brave in a new way. I think I'm ready to take that next step; starting first with respite care.
This brave step all began with my friend STM saying to me a few years ago "Have you ever thought about foster care or adoption? There is such a need and I think you'd be great at it!" That conversation started a spark. Ever since I can remember, I've wanted to be a mom. And at almost 38 years old, my biological clock is indeed ticking. But what if God has been calling me to be a mom through foster care or adoption.
I'm not sure exactly where this journey may or may not take me. But what I do know is that God will be with me every step of the way.
And in the end, I have no doubt, it will be totally worth it!!
Im linking up with Holly and Testimony Tuesday; Kelly and the RaRa linkup, Jennifer and Tell His Story; Holley and Coffee for your Heart and Kristin and Three Word Wednesday.