I am a little wounded today friends.....but I shouldn't be.
Recently I applied to be on the launch team of one of my favorite writers. I was so bummed to see an email saying that I wasn't chosen to be a part of the launch team. Now I understand that it isn't easy to narrow down the list when over 3000 people apply. But my heart was so ready to read this book before it was released.
It may seem childish of me for being wounded about not being chosen. But since I was little, I was the one who was teased relentlessly. I was the one who almost always got picked last for the team during physical education class. And even today, I sometimes find myself getting caught up in the numbers when I shouldn't be. I think all of us bloggers, at one time or another, has found ourselves getting caught up in keeping track of our analytics. But that is not what it is about at all. It is about how my words (or YOUR words) might be the words that one person needed to hear today.
My head knows that...but sometimes my heart gets in the way and I find myself wounded. I wonder why everyone around me was chosen but not ME?? Now I realize that isn't the case at all, but there are days that it sure feels like it especially when I see a copy of this book on my friends Instagram feed or a quote tweeted out on Twitter by another blog friend. I am excited for them to read this book...and I am excited to read it too (I'll just have to wait a little bit longer. I broke down and bought my preorder TODAY!)
I know that I shouldn't be wounded because that isn't what it is about at all. God has something else in store for me. Perhaps being on someone else's launch team or maybe it means using my time for something else. Whatever that path is, I need to remember that as my friend Susan says "God already knew about this" or G.A.K.A.T!" Yep, God has known all along. It just is some days that is easier to remember than others.
May we not get caught up by comparing ourselves to everyone around us. May we not be wounded when we aren't chosen for the team. May we instead trust in our God who created us uniquely to be who God created us to be.