As a woman of faith, my faith is something that I always cling to and hold on too. But when I begin asking those hard questions, I wonder if I am being a very good christian at all. But then I am reminded that like Jacob, we have a God we can wrestle with. God sees us as both saints and sinners. For me, knowing that I am able to give myself grace when all I want to do is scream and cry and continually ask God "Why?" is a gift only God can give me and all of us in the midst of our hard questions.
Earlier today, I was listening to my Pandora station when the song "Beautiful Things" by Gungor came on. The first stanza reads "All this pain; I wonder if I'll ever find my way; I wonder if my life could really change at all; All this earth; Could all that is lost ever be found; Could a garden come up from this ground at all." From the first time I heard that song, its words have held a special place in my heart and today they brought me such sweet comfort. Because God does take dust and make it into beautiful things.
As my friend Laura lives her last days on this earth, I am reminded that soon she will be free from all that ails her (as she reminded us in her latest carepages post). I am reminded of the many lives that she has touched including mine and so many others. But as I am reminded of these gifts, I also can't help but be frustrated and sad. It doesn't seem fair that Laura's daughters will lose two parents to cancer. But the thing is that cancer does not discriminate. It attacks who it will.
Yet God has this amazing way of taking dust and turning into beautiful things. Most of the time, it is like a deep fog that we cannot see through. But in time, God takes the deep fog, lifts the fog and reveals to us a magnificent rainbow. God reveals the beauty out of the brokenness.
God indeed, "You make beautiful things out of dust. You make beautiful things out of us!"
Today I am linking up with my favorites; Holly and Testimony Tuesday, Kelly and the RaRa Linkup, Jennifer Dukes Lee and Tell His Story and Holley Gerth and Coffee for your Heart.