Have you ever had a book totally wreck your soul in a totally utterly fantastic way? There is a book that is doing that for me right NOW! That book is the book "Let's All Be Brave" by Annie F. Downs. Several friends recommended her book to me and I finally was able to pick it up at Barnes and Noble on Sunday. It is one of those books that I cannot put down. It also is a book that I am continually underlining in because there is so much of this book that is already speaking to me.
My #oneword365 for this year is "brave." And oh how I want to be brave. And sometimes you just need that little shove; that push that calls you to be brave.
"I'm here to ask you to please do that thing in your heart that scares you to death. To make that move or leap or step or sound you wouldn't have made a week ago. There is no formula and there are no rules. There is the Bible, our guidebook for all things, but other than that, being brave is organic and spiritual and a unique journey for each person." (Let's All Be Brave; Annie F. Downs; P.16)
Annie's words remind me that God DOES indeed have a perfect plan for me. God knows that plan. And a lot of days it is so hard for me to trust in that plan. But then I am reminded that God knows my heart; knows every desire of my heart and indeed has a specific perfect plan for me.
"You aren't headed out to find courage. It's in you, it is blooming, and it is with you as you travel and say yes to things that seem scary. Remember, it's not only the X that matters; it's getting there ." (Let's All Be Brave; Annie F Downs; P.23)
The truth, my friends, is that I have the courage to be brave. It is in me. Like a flower blooming, that courage is blooming and growing into a beautiful flower. And as that flower is blooming, I am reminded of how many times in the Bible we hear the words "Do not be afraid." God promises to walk with us no matter what the journey brings us. And when we trust God has a way of showing up in surprising ways.
"That the moments of my greatest fears--those times when I was sure I was going to wimp out under the pressure of it all--have also been the open doors to the greatest changes in my life. So I step out, full of fear, but trusting that God is on the other side in new and wonderful ways. And so far? He always is." (Learning to Be Brave; Annie F. Downs; P.31)
"And that though I am flawed, God is loving me and refining me and reminding me that God in me is where I can place my trust. And that is the place where I find my courage." (Learning to Be Brave; Annie F. Downs; P.37)
See what I mean! As I read Annie's words, I find myself realizing how I have everything I need to be brave. I can do anything I set my mind too. Sometimes it means just simply say the words "yes!" It means trusting in God who made me. I am "fearfully and wonderfully made." I am not one hundred percent sure where this journey of bravery might take me, but each day I find myself clinging to and finding a little bit of that bravery that is already in me...that bravery that God is calling me to hold onto.
"You are one of a kind, made on purpose, deeply loved, and called to be courageous." (Learning to Be Brave; Annie F. Downs; P.45)