Saturday, October 25, 2014

A Broken Heart

"For I am sure that neither death nor life...nor anything else...will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus"

I read these words and I know that they are true. Yet at times like this when we hear of another school shooting, I find myself having a hard time trusting in them. Why do some feel the need to resort to violence and death? During times like this, people often ask where was God? I believe God was in the school with those children. However I know that that is not easy to trust in.

Yesterday as I heard the news of another school shooting, my heart was breaking...and still is breaking. And I am also a little angry. I am angry that our kids cannot go to school and be safe. I am angry that so many are so overcome by darkness that they cannot help but make bad choices. (And yet I am also thankful for those that have gotten and continue to receive the treatment they need!) I am angry that there is such a stigma that so many don't understand the illness. I am angry yet my anger is overcome by the tears streaming down my face; tears for what my mom has taught me about showing love, tears for all the lives lost in school shootings, tears for the conversations that need to take place in a scared scarred world.

I want our world to be a better place. Once I find my Mr. Right and I have a family, I don't want to have to worry about sending my children to school. I want more hope and not fear. I want there to be more love and not so much hate. A friend of mine posted several questions on her FB feed a year again after another school shooting and I cannot shake them. Her questions are in no way rhetorical. They need to be answered. And I find myself clinging to those questions again today. She writes, "We have too many hurting youth, too many kids who don't have hope, too many kids who don't feel loved. What are we going to do about this as the people of God? How are we going to speak light into this darkness and hope into despair? How will we show love to all people today?"

Yes, my dear readers and friends, how are we going to show light in the midst of this darkness and hope in the midst of this despair? How are we going to show love to God's people today? In the midst of the darkness, I cling to this precious one who was born in a manger in Bethlehem; the one who comes as the light in the midst of darkness, the hope in the midst of despair, and so much more. How do we help show that kind of love to those who are hurting, to those who don't know love?

I am reminded of my dear mother who has lived most of my life with a mental illness, yet she is one of the most faith-filled women I know. I swear she would give the shirt off her back. She simply loves unconditionally. She has been an amazing model of God's love for me and I am so grateful and thankful for that. But I find myself wondering where are those examples for those youth who are hurting and don't feel loved? How do we show them that they are loved? How do we show them that there is hope in the world? I don't know the answers, yet I want the answers! And I want those answers sooner rather than later. I want the answer not to be violence. I want the answer to be kindness and love and grace. I want....

Today I am praying for this one in Marysville who thought their only answer was violence. Today I am praying for Eric and Dylan who walked into Columbine. Today I am praying for all those who lost a child almost two years ago at Sandy Hook. Today I am praying for Adam who felt his only answer was to walk into that school two years ago. Today I am praying for all those youth who don't feel loved and who are hurting. Today I am praying that we will be able to answer these questions that my friend posted. Today my prayer is simply...come, Holy Spirit, come...help us to show them light and love and hope!


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10 comments:

  1. What a perfect, beautiful, simple and appropriate prayer.

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  2. I agree with Kirsten, such a beautiful prayer.

    It is always so shocking to hear of another school shooting - and I hope it continues to be shocking. It's sad to think we live in a world where this is becoming common. I don't want it to be common. Your friend's questions are so spot on, too. What are we going to do?

    Thought-provoking post, thank you for sharing!

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  3. Yes, prayer is sometimes the best. Pray and trust and look for ways to love the unloveable. Not easy. Thank you for reminding us of what's most important.

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  4. Such difficult questions to answer because the answers are not simple.

    All I can say is that I am loving on some youth (who have mental health issues) for no other reason than to love on them. I will be doing this by praying and staying in touch on Facebook, phone calls, Starbucks meetings and notes.

    It is such a sad day when hopelessness makes such a dramatic statement through violence, death, evil.

    Hopefully the loving and faithful actions of one + one + one + one will also make a dramatic statement!

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  5. Beautiful reminder to let go of our worries and turn to prayer instead. Thank you.

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  6. Amen....that's just about all I can say. Beautiful, sad words today from a breaking heart. But God will come and heal!

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  7. Beautiful! Prayer is powerful!

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  8. Thank you for your beautiful words and your prayer. One may not be able to do anything BUT pray; but as someone said above - one + one + one + one and so on may be able to. The questions ARE hard to answer...but what CAN we do?

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